Talus

Talus has a pink/purple sky. It is a mostly flat planet. There are few hills. A rare mountainous area, a couple lakes, but mostly grassy planes with lots of orange mushrooms and funny curly grasses. There are, however, MANY critters... especially compated to the dreary isolation of Rori.

I traveled to a POI called the Lost City of Durbin. I wondered why it was called "lost" when it was on the map as a POI. When I arrived... empty. It was a town that looked like it should be steaming with life. The founatin was still running in the town square. But... it was a ghost town. Some debris lay in the streets and critters wandered in to pick the bones of some stray humanoid skeletons. The buildings were very clean... and completely empty, even of furniture! As I picked up my exploration badge, I noticed I also had earned journeyman status as an explorer.

Talus seems to me an Imperial planet. I tripped ocvr Imperial sqauds here and there and Imperial facilities as I traveled. I went to the Imperial Outpost for another badge. It was in the deep hidden area of a mountainous region. Just as I thought I had all my things dried out... I got rained on again. I stopped at a strange mountain top with stone spikes sticking out of it that made it look like Zabrak horns. But I forgot to take a picture. Damn. I won't even remember where it is. The Imperial Outpost was... VERY VERY active with more Imperials and stormtroopers than I could count. It was built mor offensively/defensively than the Rebel outpost on Rori and was certainly mor populated. Good thing I was neutral... or I might be imprisoned or dead.

Ok, very fed up of the pink sky that hurts my eyes and the wierd curly plants. and the extremely aggressive critters constantly attacking me. Good thing I buffed!

Dreary Rori

Yes, Rori is a dreary place. Dank, humid, grey and a bit chilly. Mostly because you are never dry for long.

I checked out the POI of the Kobola Mining Bunker. I was a bit worried I would be attacked by miners... but they just ignored me. I found a few objects in magseal boxes, but left most behind. Several of these boxes were locked. How do we open them?

Fed up, I decided to leave Rori. I am tired of being wet and cold. I headed to Restuss Starport. Wow, a "real" city... though mostly empty. Very disappointing! But, real buildings, paved roads! Oh gods... i sound like a nut. I must have been in the wilds for abit too long. I may not like crowded places much... but do need a sense of civilization.

Grabbed the shuttle to Theed, Naboo, and then to Coronet, Corellia. Wow... there are street performers! I decided to try my first public doctor for a buff. She was actually very good. I am still lone-wolfing. No one is on the comm and I am a bit moody after being soaked on Rori.

Ajaa

Bordesc tagged me on the comm a couple days ago to say hi, but he was spending time with Ajaa. I tagged her to tell her she was very lucky to have him and that I am honoured to be his friend. She seems very sweet and gentle. We agreed to meet sometime and hunt together.

Little Goals

Since I just can't figure out what to do with my damned life... I decided to give myself some "little Goals".

1- acieve Master Scout status
2- sell all the useless (to me) stuff left to me
3- learn metitation 1

Bye then, Blimey will be awake and I can bounce things off him. I have so much to tell him and so much to show him...

4- make a photo gallery!

Dolch

This is an interesting fellow. I tagged him on the comm a few days into my time here in Radiant Universe to pass on a message from my priestess benefactor. They seemed to be very close like the ideal form of lovers. He is still saddened by the loss of her. Anyways, he contacted me on the comm to inform me that she had a lakeside sanctuary on Tattooine and that he added me to admin on the house, that she would have wanted it. He also offered me all the assistance I could need to build a temple in her memory. I get the feeling he would give all the world and suns and moons in the universe to please her. I discovered that he speaks this strange human dialect I heard yesterday. It is called Spanish. He translated a few things for me.

entiendo = I understand
tengo = I have
contrabandistos = smugglers

I will endeavor to learn more. I am finding it spoken frequently here. It is more dificult to learn that the other languages... except wookie (which I can understand but not speak).

I have yet to meet him. I wonder what he is like, who he is, if he can be trusted. My benefactors note implies that he can be... completely. But he is rarely in the comm when I am. What does he do? Is he a smuggler, a businessman, and hunter? Maybe a Bounty Hunter like Jakob? I don't know. He tried to offer me a safe place for the temple in the city in which he lives on Naboo... but I just don't know. I want to first sell off the crap left to me before I consider making a temple.

Aurilia

I was so captivated by that flag... So, while sitting in my camp on Rori, I did some research via my datapad. I scoured the galactic news and any archives I could poke into without a full data terminal. I did find something interesting. Aurilia is a Force Sensitive city. It is a hidden city somewhere on Dathomir where young Jedi can go seek training.

Well.. Lone-Wolfing agian...

Well, if it is going to be that kind of night... I might as well go to that kind of planet. Off to Rori.

I arrived at the Rebel Outpost starport and was shortly awarded an exploration badge for it. A rebel named Vomi confronted me thinking I was an Imperial sneaking in to kill Rebels. I must have looked at him as if he had two heads. He quickly realized I was NOT here for that. Amuzed as he was by my expression. An Imperial did come in though and killed many Rebels. That Imperial then said a few words in a strange language. I had learned a bit of the language from listening patiently and asking the meaning to words... but I did not know what was said here. Vomi and I talked a bit longer after the Imperial left. We talked about language. I taught him what I know if the strange language and we parted ways. He is quite young. I hope life does not ruin his good-natured spirit.

I am told that Rori is a Rebel planet. But when I travel the LONG distance to the Imperial Encampment POI and got my badge, I was surprized to see such a well set-up and equipped and active base there. I did not stick around. I traveled the very LONG distance to the next POI. Rori is VERY .... quiet.... There is so much vegetation that it muffles out most noises. And the sky is incredibly gray with permanent cloud cover. There are many marshes and bogs and the hills and mountains are blanketed in a fine misty fog that hangs low on the ground. Eerie. the 7000m I traveled were extremely uneventful. Ug... Not even many critters about. Most are in caves according to the map. The long an quiet and depressing ride to the next POI has left me a bit numb on all levels. It is also hard my my poor bike.

AT LAST!!! A village! A small village outpost called City of Ancients. The POI of the Hyperdrive Facility was right next door. According to the badge I got for exploring it, it is an Imperial facility. However, there were many Rebel Alliance flags hung all around inside. It was a huge facility. I got lost... real lost. Took me 20min to find my way out. Good thing I am not a lab rat or I would be some animals lunch for failing 3D mazes 101.

Honourable Invitation

Caco, the mayor of the city Wanders End (Jakob's city) invited me to live there and offered me a house and a speeder. I was sure Jakob must have recommended me. I thanked Caco, but politely declined. I already own homes and a speeder. I also am not ready to deal with living in close proximity with people I do not know or trust for a longterm commitment. I hope he understood. I was greatly honoured by the invitation.

I contacted Jakob to thank him for the recommendation. He explained that he had not really recommended me, but just told Caco after the Krayt hunting that I was an "interesting and different kind of person." I am beginning to dislike this comment about me. I ... just want to be normal. Not singled out as different. It seems to lead to confusion and misunderstanding... or make me feel like I am a pet in a zoo. I know he didn't mean it that way.

AK! Jakob surprised me in the Theed starport! He poked me in the ribs. I nearly clocked him! Thankfully I recognized him and didn't. He left to go shop for new guns. I was alone again.

Naboo POI Hunt Continues

I feel like I am back in Corbantis! Has the the balnce in this universe shifted? There are so many Imperials and overt agents and ATST's here in Theed! What the hell is happening?

I grabbed a shuttle to New Aldera. I poked into their Mall. WOW... that was impressive! I want an Aurilian Banner inmy temple when I build one. Where and how did they get it? Woohoo! I found protocal driods! I can have a merchant barker now! I also found a great Medical droid for Blimey. This mall is giving me all kinds of ideas! They had interesting displays with the lizard skulls, plants and a square brazier. They also set the crystals in a floating spiral in the centre of the room. Very interesting! Thing I will definately keep in mind.

Crap. I tried to set up mu barking droid. I don't know how. Phewie.Oh well, figure it out later. I am lone-wolfing again today. No one has their comm on. i am going to see the POI's of Mordran and the Gungan Sacred Place (GSP) As i approached, I wondered who or what Mordran was. The two POI are right next to each other. The fog rolls in very quickly! green and think to make visibility extremely difficult. And the sounds are both peaceful and haunting at the same time. RAIN! I just got rained on. This is a first in all the time I have been in this universe. I am SOOOOoooo soaked. DAMN!

I woke in the cloning facility in Kintan. I now know about Mordran. It is not a what but a who. It is a very bad tempered wookie. He shot me right off my bike. And I woke here. Crap. Ok... not taking him on again without being buffed and having company. DAMN! He scratched and scorched my new paint job in my speeder! grrr.

I must be stupid. I am off again to the GSP. Well, I will try to avoid Mordran. Bizarre. As I flew close to the GSP, I noticed a sorta circular row of spires with an band of energy connecting them. They looked like a larger version of the house building perameter markers. I wander what is going up here. It must be HUGE! Maybe it will be for a new city? Hmmm... that is an idea. Could I make my own guild or my own city? Hmmm... I will save that thought for a later time.

As i got closer, the green fog became blue fog. Wierd! The GSP was in the midst of lakes and marshes and well hidden by the fog. There are strange statues of heads scattered about. I took some pictures of me by a statue of a Gungan warrior. I was being rained on again. Soaked. Twice in one evening. I took a mission from a Gungan named Rep Been, to deliver and retrieve some historical documents. I had to speed over hills and mountains and through forests for 5000m to get to the person with the documents. It was such a beautiful ride.

OH MY GODS! Woah! I just came across and Imperial base? No... an Imperial Private estate of some kind. Hidden deep in the mountains of naboo (waypoint 2414 -3936). Curious, I went in for a closer look. A shiver ran up and down my spine. For such a beautifyl looking place, I have the most unsettling feeling about it. I just overheard someone talking... The Emporer is there. OH GODS! Must leave. Must leave NOW!

I have known some very fine people who are Imperial. However, as a whole, the Imperials have made it difficult for me to maintain my neutrality without going Rebel.

I returned to Rep Been and earned a wopping 50 creds. Oh well. The trip proved interesting and noteworthy.

Next? Deeja Peak Falls. I had fun flying over them too! I grabbed the bagde there. Then i noticed among my badges was one called : Jabba's Badge of Courage. What was that for? musta been for when i went on the Vette mission with Bordesc. *shrug*

Lone-Wolfing

FINE! I lone-wolf it for a while. So I flew over the Falls at Theed. No I was not attempting suicide. That is a cowardly copping out act. I grabbed my badge on the way down. Then is sped across Naboo to Amidala's Beach. I camped there for a bit. It was quiet, peaceful. The water was incerdibly clear and blue. The sand was soooo soft. I swam. And flopped on the sand and stared at the sky and continued to wonder WHY!!!???!!! at the universe.

Just as my stress and headache were easing... Bordesc insistantly tagged my comm. Fine. We talked. He ... read my email. He understands. good. I do NOT want to have to go through explaining it again. But I am sure i will with someone else. Talking abot it doesn't seem to make it any easier. I find it much easier to write how i feel than talk about it. Well he took the time to explain his confusion. He has problems with girls in his hunting parties trying to flirt with him or marry him. But he is already committed to someone. He thought my invite to come out to my camp was going to be yet another situation like that. Dear gods.... after what I have been through!!! never! He now sees why. And will likely never think I have such feelings for him again. I do not think I am going to bother asking all the questions I wanted to ask him in my camp the other night.

In the end, he invited me out to help him with a Vette mission for Jabba the Hutt. It was VERY dangerous. And exciting! We were up in space! The ship we boarded was full of enemy folk with resistance to almost all forms if kinetic attacks. WELL! That meant i was pretty much USELESS except to distract them from Bordesc. I did ok... as long as I walked quietly and snuck about... slowly. If you ran, they noticed you, and you got shot dead.

For the record, i think Bordesc and I sorted out ur confusions. We are still good close friends. But I will still be more cautious with both him and others.

Bordesc Confusion

Ok... I am beginning to think I might just be socially inept! My game of tag to find my camp just to make hunting a bit more fun and less serious was misinterpreted for ... something... else. Bordesc lied to me. He didn't come out because he thought is was beginning to "have feelings" for him. So he lied about his friends in need of his help to avoid seeing me. Holy CRAP! I never have "feelings" for anyone except Blimey. And even those are pretty much platonic! No one touches me! I can't bear it!

I... I tried explaining this and the painful memories muddled my attempts. I thought he KNEW a bit of what I went through and that i would NEVER get that close to anyone for ... maybe forever. I eventually just turned of my comm. I could explain. and he was unable to clarify his part in this confusion. We fuddled with what love and friendship mean and my issue with my daughters came up. I choked. Thus silent comm.

When I calmed a bit, I sent him an eamil that described everything. It pained me so much to write it. I wasn't sure I was close enough to share that with him. But i did not want to lose his friendship over a misunderstanding. What a mess. I think I just sat in the grass for 30min crying. Alone. Perhaps it is better this way.

When I got a grip, I went to Kor Vella to kill things. I was stopped twice by Imperials and searched for contraband. There were no Afarathu at their cave. What a waste of time. NOTHING! grrrrr.....

I am usually SO PLAIN AND UPFRONT! I speak and say what i mean and mean what I say. I hide nothing. And share my past with few I feel close to. But it is not like I am keeping secrets or trying to manipulate a situation! I am open and plain about my intentions so no one WOULD misinterpret them. How could I have been misinterpreted!?! I don't get it! Whay am I so upset by all this!?! Great... now I have a headache.

I flew to the Rebel Base POI for the last badge on Corellia. It is a very active base, but I was FAR from sociable anymore. There are heroes from the last battles with the Imperials there. I left.

I came to Naboo after.I tried to ask Jakob why humans mix things up. Him being the only other human i kinda know. He told me it is not unique to humans. GREAT! I will just avoid everyone then! My past experiences or something of who I am makes me soooo different from what people are used to. Are they used to people manipulating and canniving? I seem to be different, rare, interesting... an anomoly to people. Do people lask so much honour and honesty? My being different seems to make people unsure, uncomfortable, and thus misunderstand my plainness. Why am I so different?!? Why is it wrong?! GAK!!!!!

Yesterday: Lord Nyax's Cult

I discovered I earned the Novice Explorer badge. Interesting.

I packed up my camp, then headed for Lord Nyax's Cult POI. I was NOT ready for what I discovered there!There was some sort of concrete shrine with the skulls and lightsabers of Jedi. It was creepy. I wondered if it was an honourable tribute or a display of triumph. I had a bad feeling it was the latter. I explored the abandoned buildings and sicovered more skulls and sabers on display on a table in a basement lounge. The wrongness was palpable. I felt like I was walking among ghosts, restless ghosts. With my small hairs all standing on end, I left this place. I set up another brief camp to pray for their souls and wish themm on their journey to the other world. I prayed that someone somehow would avenge their wrongful deaths. I wonder who they were. May they find peace soon.

I traveled north to the Agrilat swamp. It was just as spectacular as in Corbantis, with its crystals growing abundantly like plants and its steaming geothermal rock pillars streaming out hot water.

I finally flew through the peaceful forests further north to do the job I took for the Corsec Agent in Vreni Island. The city I ended up in was huge, but desolate. I looked it up on the map: Doaba. I met a miner and received the info to take back to the Agent. I hopped the shuttle back to Vreni Island and delivered my information. Bordesc was on the comm... yeah. I wasn't going to have a lonely evening. I hoped we would get together and hunt this evening. I was in a very social mood. There was no point brooding on the night befores issues.

Oh how wrong I was! Why are humans SO confusing!!!???!!! I don't even know where to begin with this mess!

Waffle Thoughts

I wasn't going to upload this... but considering later events...
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Well camping by the water got me to thinking. How much I miss Corellia's wilds. How much I miss Blimey. Wondering what things will be like when he comes out of stasis. Bordesc. What I want to do with my life. How I have changed. If Blimey will have changed. What it means, these words and feelings of Friendship or Love. I am waffling and brooding.

When I was with Blimey, I was learning social skills. I was also learning about trust and friendship and... closeness. I am not willing to call it love, for risk of jinxing anything and him dying in stasis or something. But we did become as close as I think I could ever tust to come with anyone. I had firm ideas that I wanted to be a Ranger. A noble profession. I enjoy working with Blimey. I care very deeply for him. Will he feel the same when he wakes? I have changed so much. I am not as shy as I was. I don't have to always be looking over my shoulder for death to strike me... or those close to me. So I am not the same. Will Blimey know me? Will he even like me? Will I still trust him? Will he still trust me? What is this confusing bundle of emotions?

Then I think about Bordesc. Now he is just a friend I enjoy hunting with and talking with. I feel like he is a good and honest and trustworthy friend. I know he has a lady friend he is very close to. Somehow I feel that she is very lucky to have someone so very caring and gentle. I almost envy her and him the closeness I am sure they share. I wonder if I will ever have that? I wonder if I can ever trust that far and risk that much vulnerability. Do they love each other? What does that mean? I have always wanted to ask him. I have not known anyone in such a relationship before. Maybe if I ask him, it will help me understand what it is that I feel for Blimey.

I am so waffling over how to bring up this subject. It would mean having to explain the pains of my past with someone I have only been friends with for little over a week. I hope he comes to my camp so we can talk.

What do I want as a profession too? I waffle there as well. What do I want to do with my life? I feel... purposeless. In Corbantis, I had a purpose: hunt and scout for resources for Blimey and Eseefa. Now I don't. I am working on being a fine scout.... and training hard in unarmed and one-handed combat. But for what? Why? How can I be useful? Bordesc comes and buffs me for free. How can I repay him? What can I do for him within my skills? I hope we can talk about this too.

Well, actually I guess we won't meet to talk about it. He has friends in troube he need to go help. The spirits of the universe I guess just told me that this is not the time to trust nor adress these things with him. Just when I was feeling social and ready to stop my silent lone-wolf brooding. I so wish Blimey were here....

Out in Woods

I have been POI hunting and camping in the woods of various planets and so haven't had the opportunity to upload my datapad. So this will be done in a couple uploads.

2 Days Ago
I stopped to see an Image Designer, but it was too uncomfortably crowded and busy. Coronet, Corellia is MUCH busier her in Radiant than it ever was in Corbantis! I crossed paths again with Bordesc and got a quick buffing. He is doing Jabba the Hutt's missions. I got bored of Tattooine, so I went POI hunting on Corellia. I grabbed a badge for the Vreni Island Outdoor Theatre. I also stopped into a hotel and picked up a mission from a noble and one from a Corsec Agent. The Corsec Agent's mission is FAR away and will take time to do. The noble's mission was nearby, so i takled it first. A friend of hers wanted to make a speeder race, but a nest of grondas was in the way. So I exterminated the pests. Well that took time. They are huge and look like hairless banthas. They were just as tough too.

I stopped into a nearby town, as I still need armor boots (mine are ruined). I got banned from the shops! The Rebel guild SOS was at war with the Imperial guild Relic. I was kinda in the middle. I understand that they do not want potential enemies and spies buying the supplies that they might need. But damn. Now I need to find another place to get boots. 3 days of hunting boots and still no success!

I spoke with Ghozst about this as he passed me in that town. He gave me the waypoints to a couple vendors. These vendors were near Bela Vistel, so I went to see the Crystal Fountain there. It was a boring trip when I did it in Corbantis. But not so here. In the evening, the Fountain is spectacular. Shining shades of blue, gentle streams pouring down the sides of the crystal pillar. I left much impressed to head for the vendors. I traveled over the mountaines and saw... white stuff! Cold wet white stuff. Bordesc and Ghozst both nickered and told me it was snow. I felt so ignorant. But it is beautiful and reminded me of the Crystal Fountain, shining shades of blue.

The vendor X-Link has absolutely everything! it was awesome! I got my boots and some rare items and a quality sliced knuckler. I got to see what the blue rug will look like once I find the last piece. X-link was very nice. I may be able to sell him things from my inherited stock. Oh it would be great to offload and not have to do business.

I also discoved I had inadvertently gotten 2 more badges: one for being a badge collector of 10 badges and one for collecting 10 Exploration badges. Odd!

I traveled up to the Rogue Corsec Base for another badge and camped along the way. The base was quite abandoned. I camped to rest after. I hoped to sit and chat with Bordesc a bit before hunting soome more and wanted to invite him with me to Lord Nyax's. However he had an "emergency" with some friends and couldn't come. So much for the game of tag. Hunting is fun.... but sometimes company makes it better. Ah, well, i hoped his friends are well and that he got to them in time to settle hind mind. I decided to stay at the camp in these woods near a lake and watch the sunset. It was peaceful, quiet, with beautful shades of pink and orange shimmering in the swirled clouds that are so unique to Corellia. I hadn't realized just how much I missed Corellia till then.

A Few Notes...

1- I decidedly dislike shopping.

2- I went to Jabba's Palace, but they would not allow me in nor allow me to work for them. "I am not in good enough standing with Jabba." AND "I should be more careful who I hang around with, why don't I go be the good little girl that I appear to be and take up honest work." Hmph!

3- Radiant Academy has a fountain with FISH swimming in it in their mall!

That is it.

Oh... I need to have a badge for Master of the Most Missed Shuttles... and for Master of always grabbing the ticket to the wrong city. I missed my shuttle again. And when I did get on to travel to Corellia, expecting to land in Coronet... I discovered myself in a strange city I never seen before... I had to look up a map. I found I was in Tyrene. DOH!!!

Office

Well, today I have been gradually setting up more of the shop and my office. Furniture is expensive! I am also having a real hard time finding the table and chairs I would like. I think later I will have to take a break. Actually... I will take a break now. I am going to Corellia. Time for a change... going to see the Image Designers... and then I will explore Corellia as much as I can.

Fascinating Man

I met a fascinating man in the cantina after Bordesc left. (Bordesc went to attemp the Correllian Corvette Mission... I wished him luck.)

The man I met was a Zabrak named Ghozst. He is a warrior in all senses of the word, where warrior has both physical and spititual demands. His path was once one full of terrible acts. Then as he awoke to the deteriation ans toll it was having on his inner self, he chose a new path. He is part of a group of warriors that train ans hone the body, mind and spirit. So, that explains why he is an amazing dancer as well. It was a requirement in order to learn grace, balance, and flexibility. We talked for hours! We talked about life and philosophy... it was a rare moment. He danced for me almost the entire time. I was honoured... and a bit shy. He had an incredible sense of respect for my sensitive nature regarding space and proximity. He "unconsciously" stepped back to give me space if he danced too close. I was so impressed my this man... and inspired. He has been the only truly friendly Zabrak I have met here. He explained that most are locked or enslaved into the faction war... and have lost their sense of self and the honour involved in the path of the warrior. Watching him dance was... incredibly relaxing... dance... such freedom of expression. Sometimes I wish I could do so... but then I know I would feel... exposed. Much of his warrior self and his remarkably gentle nature reminded me of Blimey. Ghozst is also Imperial, which surprised me. But he is seriously considering neutrality. It was wonderful to just sit and talk and not feel driven to achieve or forced to fight or hide. I really like these rare moment... like the one I had with Jakob the first time I met him. People fascinate me. Their complexity, what makes them who they are. Hmmm... maybe I will be a storyteller (well writer) and document the fascinating stories and experiences of the people I meet.

Bordesc's Tale

Bordesc was named after a fallen hero from ancient mythology. This hero was a knight named Boramere from the kingdom of Gondor. He was trying to help solve a desperate situation when temptation and greed caused his betrayal, and descent... In the end he realized his folly and risked his very life to save the wee folk in his group. He tried his best... but his death was not enough to save them.

Bordesc: Boramere's Descent

Well this human man woke with no memory in the MosEisley hospital. He was recognized by someone who told him little of who he was... just his name. Forced to reform his life, he chose to study as a doctor in that hospital. Now he is a Master Doctor. He is also an accomplished, Master Pikeman.

He is an easy man to speak with. Respectful and patient. Something behind those eyes shines and glows. There are secrets he has lost the knowledge of. There is a potential he has yet to tap into. He would be a model jedi... like one of the ancient heroes... as long as he remembers the tales of his namesake.

I am honoured to know him.

more to come...

I will have to come back to this later. WOW... It was such a great and interesting day yesterday. I wrote so much in my datapad. I have some errands to run, but I promise to finish up this series of entries before sunset.

Tuskan Fort Hunt (POI)

After Bordesc got his trophy, we went to the med centre and healed. but forgot to go to the cantina for more healing... ah well. He buffed me and we decided to hunt the Tuskan Fort Badge... and Tuskans in the process. This was lots of challenging fun! We hunted them for nearly 2 hours! I managed to loot lots of creds from the Tuskans. I also got some sword cores (whatever they are used for... guess I will sell them) , Tuskan boots and a Tuskan rifle (I think I will keep those... and mount the rifle on a wall... maybe in the Office. i got the badge in the caves by the pool... and took a picture! Oh... I so need to set up a photo gallery. I found some pictures from one of mybenefactors and I have a bunch I took... I will let folks know as soon as I figure out how to logistically do this. I saw a giant Gong too! I am collecting the pieces to make one. Wow... not I know what it looks like... I really want it! I will have to stop in Radiant Academy and pick up the pieces I saw a vendor there selling.

Bordesc can Res (resurrect) people who have died... so long as not too much time has passed. I didn't know that could be done! Blimey never did that! WOW! I think I will have to have these two guys meet.

After hunting till we got bored of it, we traveled to MosEisley and healed up in the cantina. Eseefa tagged me on the comm. WOW! HE MADE IT TO RADIANT!!! How? When? Blimey will be glad that one of his good friends is here. Eseefa seems well. We are not very close, but he is ok. Friends through association. I think I am closer to Bordesc at this point. (No offence intended to Eseefa!)

Hunting Trophy

I was bored. So I decided to test myself. I folloed up a rumor about a Master Hunter training folks and awarding them with a Hunting trophy if they succeed. So off I went. There were an UNBELIEVABLE number of Imperials in Bestine... and even a base with a mission terminla just outside town. It was similar in MosEspa! I even got SEARCHED! Phew... not fined or arrested... even though I was carrying sliced weapons.

Just as I was wondering if I was actually supposed to be in MosEntha and not MosEspa, i found the "Master" Hunter, Mat Rags. Hmmm. He was an old, fat, bald human man. Not inspiring or impressive.

He gave me my first mission... to kill a desert squill harrassing Jawas. That was tough... and I used many of my Stim-B's to help keep me alive. Hmmm... should have buffed beforehand... but the only guy I trust to buff me was not available at the moment. I managed it. And was paid quite well! 2000 credits.

The next mission was to collect the hide from a Greater Variegated Wamp Rat. OUCH! that was tougher of a hunt. i thought I was going to die... but survived... just. Stupid rat. The experience i earned from the first 2 hunts was phenominal! So, maybe this is not a waste of my time. I was also paid 4oo0 creds for it.

The next hunt was for a Matriarch Bantha. Oh oh. I seen Jakob's friends take them out buffed and have been warnded I ought to be buffed for those. I checked my stim supply and then managed to reach Bordesc. But he was on Rori. I asked if he would be able to buff me when he returns to Tattooine. Then he reprimanded me for asking for a buff just AS I am getting into a fight over my skills. :) hehe... I fugured that I survived the first two, that I could survive the third. It took me a LONG time to fight this Bantha... and I used up two sets of stimpacks. BUT... HAHA... I managed it! I was stuck in a sandstorm on my way back and attacked by Desert Demons too. They just don't stopp... and they don't seem to learn that attacking me is a death sentence... theirs.... You would think word would get around. *shrug* Well I got paid 6000 creds for this hunt mission. WOW!

The next was a Grizzled Dewback. Bordesc was seriously warning mw about them. But i felt brave and bold. I am glad he came up behind me and helped keep me haled while I fought it. I ran out of my last available stimpack set and the beast was barely injured. I lectured me, much like Blimey would about taking on such a fight. That I should have just waited for the buff... that I knew he was on his way. Ah well. I lived! I am very bold and confident when I am hunting. I don't have to worry about anything... like past personal experiences. I end up in some... zone... where I can just DO. And usually do rather well. Hmm... Well upon return, I was awarded the Hunting Trophy! It is an amazing looking Bolma skull. My pet Bolma was a bit uncomfortable about it. But I petted him and assured him I would not do that to him. Bordesc was so impressed and excited that he took up the challenging hunts too and got himself a trophy too!

Great Day!

This will be long... maybe I will break it up... Yes, I think I will do it in chunks. I had a really good day!

Hutt Mission for Darklighter

Funny how old habits die hard. I now own living space and yet crash in camps or cantinas. Funny how I feel like an enemy will find me in my house but not in a public location.

Anyways, I decided to show good on my promise to Darklighter that I would get his grandfathers gun back from the smugglers that took it to Naboo. My sources indicate Borvo the Hutt in Moenia. Just to be safe, I wanted to get buffed before going. Blimey is not here to do so... so... I called up Bordesc, the doc who helped me survive sampling toxic waste. He was surprised and honoured that I would contact him for buffing. He charged me 1/2 price after a bit of an argument (I tried to pay him full price). This human has always been friendly and honest. I will give him my business and recommend him.

Moenia is still a foggy swampy place. Naboo is... well still kinda pretty. And the spiders are still DAMN HUGE!!!

Jakob tagged me on the comm. He decided to do the mission with me. Yay... company. I still don't really know why he hangs around me. He too is an honest and friendly human... one I am growing disturbingly comfortable around. We met with Borvo the Hutts guards in the Moenia cantina and helped out with a couple tasks (guiding someone back and assassinating a Corsec undercover snitch), then were sent out to impersonate the Corsec agent on Corellia in Coronet to the Corsec chief to try to retrieve Borvo's money. The Corsec chief gave us a couple of missions to meet people, but these people recognized us as not the agents we claimed to be. We fought, they died. The Corsec Chief thinks Borvo's agents killed these people before we got to them. Hehe. We were given the money for "safe keeping"... and the chief was never the wiser. Returned to Moenia, we gave the money directly to Borvo and then helped him deal with an ex-friend and "fire" an "employee". We were awarded with the gun (an OLD Tuskan King's rifle... must be Huff Darklighter's Grandfather's).

On the trip back to Tattooine, Jakob and I talked about professions (Bounty Hunters, Rangers, fighter professions) but it hasn't really helped me identify what I plan on doing with my life. Along the last shuttle trip, an overt Rebel agent mistook me for someone else and kissed me. I was shocked! I gave him one hell of a piece of my mind. He apologised and explained the confusion... and apologised again. He will be more cautious next time. And I will no longer stand so close to people! It was a violation! Not even Blimey is allowed to kiss me....

Anyways, we went to Darklighter's Estate and gave huff the gun and did a few tasks for him, earning his trust. In thanks, he awarded us with an old polished krayt dragon skull. It is huge! One of the missions was to kill a slaver. Some Hutts are involved in slaving. I must remember this! Huff was kind enough to allow me to use a spare room to rest after hearing of the mission I undertook to ensure I got his gun back. He also strongly suggested to enjoy life a little. Ya... I will, maybe. I mean, I do!

Moving

Damn. I spent a couple hours setting up the vending shop... only to discover a great spot closer to MosEisley... So I spent hours... MOVING!! Then the house terminal and vendor broke and i had to wait for service people to fix them. My new neighbors is an undeclared city for the Guild of Neutrality.

Once all was done, I trudged over to the cantina to sit and listen to the news of folks. I learned that AFK is a guild (Adventurers for Kash), focusing on hunting and crafting for creds, helping each other out and having fun. It is run by Teague. I met him in passing a few times.

Someone noted that I shifted from Corbantis to Radiant dimensions. I must be careful a bit... mine or Blimey's enemies may have been daring enough to take the journey.

Setting Up Shop

Well... I now have a vending house, a private storage house and a public crafting house. My benefactors have completely left. I am trying to get a grip on the whole... I own findable buildings, livingspace, and a vendor. I decided to call it all Firecat Trading, as I am not likely to craft things of my own. But I can certainly hock other people's things... and things I collect, along with the ton of things left to me to sell. I will keep my prices very low so the items are easily accessible. Hmmm... guess I need to make the places... look "nice". Geez... How? It will be a busy day, I suspect, as I work on figuring all that out. Blimey will be shocked!

Oh... I guess I should see about getting a heralding droid.

This is from Pahoo's Datapad

(it explains more what happened to poor Jakob last night... and poor Pahoo)

"Hey just a quick note. I was busy last night as group leader to chase down a dark jedi. When it was all said and done. We had two bounty contracts, one holed up in his house on naboo, the other we found on dathomir training with another dark jedi and nightsisters. We were less than 100 meters from our target when our squad was hit by nightsister elders. They wiped all but 1 of our people out including myself. It happened so fast that all of the time and preperation to get to this point was lost. And although our spirits were crushed in the premature demise of our endevour, we vowed to do this again soon. Lessons were noted and a future contract, with luck, will have better results than this. Take it easy, and I hope to see you soon out there. May the force be with you... always." PAHOO

POI Hunt is ON!

I Hunted POI badges yesterday on Tattooine, along with critters in my path for experience. I watched Jawas try to kill a mountain squill... the squill walked away... the Jawas didn't. I accidentally flew into a mess of squill watvhing the scene! That was a bit of a chase. They practically followed me to the Darklight Estate!!

At the Darklight Estate, I was not permitted to speak with Huff Darklight, the owner. He supports the Old Republic and now the Rebel Alliance. His guard told me that if I could find Huff's Grandathers gun (somewhere on Naboo) then I would earn Huff's trust. I think I heard someone in a cantina talking about that... hmmm... OH YEAH! Hutts and Moenia! I will try that later after getting the Tattooine POI badges. I am not yet ready to deal with Hutts.

I stopped in a city called Radiant Academy for some training with a trainer... in one-handed combat. I also bought myself a curved sword. I may get a vibroblade if I find one. I thing I really like using this weapon to using my hands and the knuckler...

I explored the old Lars Homestead and started trying to clear out the Evil Hermits when I was attacked by the Desert Demon gang. They are all over the place and seem to be bent on killing me for some reason. Hmmm... maybe I it has something to do with me killing one of their cheifs attacking a kid. Do you think?

The abandoned Escape Pod looked the same in this universe as in the one I cam from.

Now that I KNOW Krayt Dragons exist... if any are as big as the Ancient Krayt Skeleton indicates... HOLY CRUD!!!!! I met a Twi'lek there who was so badly wounded from his on-foot trip to the Sarlacc that I made camp and healed him some. Morally, I could not let him wander the desert any further in that state.

Woohoo... got my Sarlacc POI badge... and didn't get diseased. Then again... I didn't hang about or stupidly taunt the creature. I was awarded a badge for collecting 5 badges! Odd! Never had THAT before.

EEWWW!!!!! I paused by a nest of Bantha and all 4 of them came over and LICKED ME!!!! EEEWWW!!! Bantha slobber... I so need a bath... :(... The sand is sticking to me now too.YUCK!

Ben's House looks the same, too. It also had that force field blocking anyone from entering... no bath for me here. :(

I went to Bestine and bathed there. Then hopped the shuttle to MosEisley. I was going to relax a while in the cantina when I saw Browder. he was among us fighting te krayt dragons the other night. He joined the HOPE guild. He introduced me to Lunalola from the AFK guild. We talked a bit. They is good people.

Jakob tagged me on the comm just as I was about to grab some zzz's in an isolated corner. I knew his comm had been open for about 2 or more hours... but didn't want to bother him. I had a sense that he needed some time alone. And he told me he did when he tagged me. He said a mission went badly and he needed to do a bit of the lone-wolf thing to settle himself. I completely understand. I think I am growing ... at ease... with him. My instincts say I should trust him. But can I? And how much? How far? Why do I get stuck on these doubts? Dammit why won't the past just die and be gone like the dimension I left!?!

DRAGONS!!! Dragons on Tattooine!!!

My day started out... bad... "off". I felt like I was having an identity crisis. It was stupid and annoying. I no longer felt like I had purpose. What was my goal? What am I striving to be... and WHY?! The why is the most difficult to answer. I feel like I am floundering.

I use to love being alone.. cherished the few rare moments when I could escape the idea of being a slave and just curl in a corner and day-dream of what I could do when I esceped for real. Then I really did escape. Free.... Now what? I was alone again. It was fine. I explored, and trained... then I met Blimey... and everything changed. He... socially corrupted me. I am not saying it is a bad thing. But now I have this NEED for intelligent social contact. Gods, I miss him.

Just when I thought I was going to lose my mind, a bunch of Zabrak dragged me hunting Spice Fiends in MosEisley. It passed the time.

Jakob tagged me on the comm and invited me out to see dragons. I scoffed at him a bit... Dragons... haha... what dragons? I met him in Haven and flew through an amazing graveyard full of bones and skeletons of giant lizards, dead dragons... long dead dragons. I snagged a POI badge there. Hmmm... I should go get the other POI badges from this planet. We looked... and looked... and LOOKED for dragons. He assured me they exist. I met some of his friends from the last time I saw them. They did not behave quite so crazy this time. I still felt uncomfortable around them. One of them buffed me... I felt like a dork when I was surprised by the results. It had been so long since the last time I was buffed. I felt even more like a dork when I gawked at the Jedi that was a friend in the group. They must think I am either SOOOOooo stupid or SOOOOoooo naive. Both I think. The night's chill was really getting to me... along with the crowd of people I was uncomfortable with and the inactivity. Just as I was giving up to go to bed, they announced that they found one! Not just one... but THREE!!! THREE DRAGONS!!! Young ones... but real dragons! I saw DRAGONS! And helped kill them, and harvested from them. DRAGONS! AND JEDI! What a night! I really wish Blimey were here. I think he would like Jakob.... and Jakob's friends.

Today in Radiant

Yay! I am back on track with this journal. What a confusing mess it was.

Ok, today I was in NO MOOD to grind skills. i was harrassed by a person cliaming newness but seemed very familiar with things. I advised him and taught him languages I knew... but then he rudely touched me. He hugged me. I advised him of social etiquette. And he seemed upset and left me alone.

I decided to check out those waypoints from the criminal. First I went to the Hutt Hideout. It was a cave with many... ummm... what are they? Um... Gamorreans? They were there and ignored me or grunted at me. I then went to the Rebel Hideout to discover it was a reckage half-buried in the sand with skeletons scattered about. So much for that! Looking on my map, the closest city was Anchorhead. So that is the next city I will explore. It was kinda small. The cloning facility and cantine are not well marked. The cantina and med centre share space... how ODD!! I then found Rebel Mission terminals and a recruiter in the basement. Hmmm... good to know. Ok... it is very hot out... taking a break.

Day 6 in Radiant: Yesterday

I did some more work on my scouting and unarmed skills. I even went out to the houses to get armor and try to tackle tougher creature. I thought about organizing the stuff... But the place... still feels like someone else's... and I am not comfortable with the idea of owning something so locatable.

I contacted Blimey's benefactor, Pahoo, as he was on my list of trusted folks. I let him know what was up with Blimey. He let me know that he was holding 2 things for me. He came out to meet me, helped me fight some zucca boars that swarmed on me, gave me the 2 things... and left. He was fairly stand-off-ish. And that was it.

I was figuring on another long lonely evening of personal training. I decided to go explore the waypoints I got from the criminal. I stopped along the way to the first one to fight and harvest some tougher creatures and learn how to use my armor. Pahoo suggested I use a vibroknuckler... so I was trying that out too. Then I was attacked by some crazy hermits! While trying to fight them off and the creatures... Jakob came through on the comm and asked me to join him in the MosEisley cantina and meet some of his friends. As soon as I killed my attackers, I called up my bike and headed back to MosEisley.

There was a hell of a crowd there!!! I thought it would be like 2 or 3 of his friends... not like 10 of them! I stayed on the outskirts. I was real wary. Pahoo was there and asked some introductory questions, as did some of the others. There were members of 2 other guilds there. Let me see if I can remember the names of who I met... Teague, DocDeath?, Kesa... and many others. The only other guild I remember is HOPE. They were all acting kinda crazy and goofing around. I was very uncomfortable and felt extremely out of place. Pahoo started to announce recruiting for the city they all live in. I wish him luck. His shpeel was good and interesting.... but not interesting enough for me. I just watched everyone. I tried to talk a bit... but... I just wanted to hide in a corner or under a table. I felt like I could trust no one. I almost left when Jakob came aside to talk a bit with me and try to set me at ease. He mentioned that he heard a distinctive sound of a lightsaber... Jedi! We both went outside... with Pahoo (who is also a member of Watchmen) to see if we could find the Jedi. All we found were Valarian Gang members who attacked us. Exhausted, I retired to a quiet corner of the cantina and wished Jakob a good hunt.

Day 5 in Radiant

Almost up to today's actual time...

This was also a grinding day. It was real lonely. I put all the things I crafted onto the Bazarre. I hate the over-focus of grinding. I prefer to go out and explore things or sit and observe a group interacting.

I spoke with a criminal and paid him some for the locations of Jabba's hideout and a Rebel base. I will go explore them in a day or two.

I went into the Cantina and watched a guy flirt (or try to) with this girl. They were humans. It was a combination of him flirting and him trying to get her to move into his city. Meanwhile, some Twi'lek was repeated and rudely interrupting and trying to get the guy to duel him. If I were more skilled, I would have dueled him, killed him, and thus shut him up. The guy was not in the mood to duel. He had enough of fighting for the day and just wanted to socialize in peace. After the girl left, I asked him about his guild and city. His name is Jakob. And he is a member of the Watchmen BountyHunters Guild. He had an interesting bio. We later sat in a less busy section of the cantina and just talked. It was nice to have a normal conversation with a living being. I got a good trustworthy feeling off of him. How well can I trust my instincts here? Is he trustworthy? He was kind, and respectable. He even switched to speaking my own tongue out of respect for me. He was the kindest human I had ever met. He sent me an email later to explain the guild more and the city, as well as give me the waypoint for the city.

Day 4 in Radiant

This was a working day. I reached Business 3. I reached Unarmed 2. And am working on my scouting skills. I even got my Diagnostics 1 and First Aid 1.

I watched an overt Imperial kill an overt Rebel in the med centre!!! The redel medic was so occupied that he didn't hear the warnings to defend himself. It was a bit shocking. Must remember that Aeco is Imperial and hunts Rebels.

Day 3 in Radiant

I spent this in meditation most of the day. I want to make contact with folks on the list I was given. But... I am... so very nervous about it. Somehow I was more secure talking to people in Corbantis. I knew what to expect. It is different here.

But I must... MUST pass on the message from the priestess to her dear one.

I contacted him. He was terribly upset that she did not tell him herslef. His name is Dolch. He misses her so much. His grief pained me. He seemed so kind and caring and now so lost without her... so sensitive...

It almost melted me to tears!

He understood the cryptic message. Thankfully.

I miss Blimey. It hit me today... just how lonely it is here... how lonely I am. I have been so busy trying to distract myself with everything and training...

Day 2 in Radiant

Well... I tried my hand at this artisan thing. The helper droid advised me to use the survey device my trainer gave me and survey for minerals and then collect some samples. So I did. The minerals I surveyed were "known radioactive minerals" and there was lots around town. This will be an easy and quick collection... or so I thought.

My first attempt at sampling knocked me out and injured me so badly I had to be dragged to the cantina and then to the med centre. Fucking toxic waste. The entertainers werr shocked by my state and did their best to ease my stress and pain. Then the doctors practically swarmed around me. The man who saved me was Etodo, a human in the area who is working to become a full master doctor... like Blimey. He came out with me on my second run to survey and sample the toxic waste... but he just was not fast enough to prevent the damage it did to me. So round two landed me again in the cantina and med centre. He went to the med centre to care for another emergency and said he would wait for me there. The entertainers said I was out of my mind. I was quickly becoming the talk of the town. It was getting embarrassing. I met a master doctor in the cantina, Bordesc, another human. He helped me to the med centre, but let the interns work on me under his supervision. Then he buffed me a bit so I can go out and finish the damned sampling. He also asked why I wasn't sampling something safer. Why wasn't I? It was the item on the survey list. So off I went for fucking round three. and back I came... similarly damaged. I met several people in the med centre. Trandoshen are not just slavers here. ANd the people are more eclectic and friendly. Bordesc informed me that the ration of Rebel to Imperial is like 60-40. So the Imperials do not have the hold they do in Corbantis Universe. Oh...

Advice to all out there... do not sample fricken toxic waste with your hands!!!
Get a harvesting machine to do it for you.

I learned from a MonCalamri hor to select other things to sample. DOH! I didn't have to harvest toxic waste... I felt SOOOOOooooooOOooo stupid. He also taught me his language. As did the trandoshen who trained me in some brawl skills and the wookie who taught me some scouting. I will still speak my own tongue though, unless they speak first to me in theirs.

I have no past here... and so no one is hunting me.... I have more freedom here than I did before. What do I want to do with myself? Who am I? What kind of person do I want to be? I will consider these questions while I retrain myself in the skills and knowledge lost through the journey here.

Backtrack to Day 1 in Radiant

I woke... confused... not recognizing myself and having things explained to me. My benefactors here (and I will get to them in a minute) ensured I had the best doctors and had claimed my belongsings to keep them safe. OH GODS... the Pendant I thought. They must have it. I was given a brief orientation and sent out with a damned helper droid into MosEisley, Tattooine. Wow... I had a lot of re-evaluating to do. Coming here cost me all my skills and learned knowledge. They had to do major reconstruction from the last DNA signature they had of me... which was long ago before the Image Designers. I didn't even have a datapad journal. The droid was capable of email messages. I came here through a small and dangerous tear in the time-space continuum... so went back in real time by about a week. Therefore... it would be almost 4 weeks, not 3 before Blimey would arrive. I hope nothing else went wrong and he gets here safe. I ensured his safety as far as I was able.

So, the emails I got on arrival were from my two benefactors here. A priestess of the order I used to be in was going to pass from this existance and has left me all her belongings and funds. She gave me a list of waypoints and a list of some trusted contacts, some of whom are holding some of her/my items. She also asked me to pass on some very cryptic messages to someone dear to her... someone she could not find to say goodbye to. My other benefactor is a smuggler who is retiring and leaving me some houses and his vendor and banked for me more than 700k credits. He told me to train in artisan and obtain my business 3 to have the vendor. He too left me many things. He also advised me that some things in the vending house are for some of the people on my contacts list.

I followed the first waypoint named Grakal's Bikes & Power-ups. I arrived to a locked house with a note to go next door. So I did, and bought myself a speederbike. Grakal's is amazing. He has speeders and swoops and cheap cars for 10k each! I will have to recommend him! When I arrived a the houses... wow... there was so much stuff! It was all stuffed in packs and containers. Two houses were put into my name. the third he would pass to me as soon as I get the business training. Holy Stars! Where do I begin? I have never really and whole owned this much stuff. And I feel real wierd about it. There is WAY more here than when Blimey left me his things. Blimey! His pendant was here! That I put on right away. I also grabbed the good datapad. I claimed a couple bits of clothing (black skirt, armored Ubese boots, black short top, and two bracelets) and a backpack, as well as some supplies to make traps and things (hides, bones, chemicals, minerals, metals, and organic materials).

I wonder if Blimey will recognize me?

I left behind the armor and weapons and things... not sure how to tackle them... . I am just not ready for this! I need some time to sort my head out and figure out what I am going to do.

I started by adjusting my bio. Then returning to MosEisley to find some trainers and pick p novice skills in Scout, Brawler, Medic... and I guess Artisan now too. I have a lot of work ahead of me.

Disorientation

Well... i am not sure how long it has been as time in the Shift seems to be skewed. My datapad got wrecked last week when we were attacked an boarded. The carnage in the ship was... unbelievable. They (some small and fast lizard-like race) attacked us and tried to take the stasis units. We fought long and hard. Many were injured and dead, many of the stasis units damaged or taken. I am glad I kept up my practice of combat... it did me good when I fought for Blimey's life. His stasis unit was fine... even when it was jostled by the sudden jump. I, on the other hand, was not fine. Now I can really see why the bodyguards were necessary. Blimey would be lost otherwise. At the station, they did extensive doctoring. But they said they could do little more to help me until the Shifting meds wore off. So we were all split up onto different ships for different things.

The intact stasis units took their scheduled transit whish should get them to Radiant in about 2 weeks real time. The injured bodyguards were put into short-term stasis and sent on a medium risk transit which will get them to a med centre in Radiant in a few days to a week. I was among the emergency cases. We were put into a low-level stasis with high deterioration risk but sent by a fast transit and arrived in Radiant ... well today.

Or ... rather a week ago... I am all confused. Time is off and it will take me some time to get adjusted. This low-level stasis was to help regeneration. Most of us had to go through some form of reconstruction or cloning when we arrived.

That meant... I arrive and woke in my original core DNA signature, before any image designers had modified my looks. It also meant that I lost much in the way of skills and knowledge and memory. I am glad I have been so diligent with my journal or i too might have lost my mind as the Rodesian next to me...

So... now I have like a whole week of datapad journaling to get caught up on as i just got a datapad now and have been in Radiant for a week. What a time-mess. I am as confused as you are. I do not recommend doing what I have done. The cost... is too high and too risky... unless the reason is so important that none of that matters. Mine was.

Blimey will not arrive for another 2 weeks... and then be in the process of de-stasis (f that is what it is called) for another week.

I will try to update this journal to today's events and catch up on what has happened to me over the past week in this new dimension.

Hell in Limbo

We came to the unpleasant sudden stop for the last pause before the station. I feel like I am losing my mind but trying to keep cool and calm about it. Others here are losing thier minds. Time is erratic. At one moment, we think we have been sitting here for 2 days to find out only a few hours went by ... the next, we grab a short nap and find out nearly a day passed. This is the longest pause. We are wondering when we will be taking the next jump. Without the pilot droid, we have no idea. Our food is low and we are hungry, which is not helping.

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crap... we are being attacked!

Lunch?

Well... that was unpleasant. The trip between pause #3 and pause #4 was like badly set hyperdrives... we left our lunches... and our stomaches behind somewhere along the way. The pause was like a sudden stop that knocked a stasis unit over crushing a man to death. We managed to free him, but there was no hope. And that stasis usit was damaged. I don't know if the person inside will survive. We hope they do not "deteriorate". We wrapped the poor dying guy and made him as comfortable as possible during the pause. He died a few moments later. I am glad Blimey is still ok. Now... we are just "surviving" with food rations and bad flying. The next jump was as bad as the last. So a droid pilot makes a big difference in the balancing... but the ship is otherwise on a programmed autopilot. One more pause and then the third official stop at a station. It is almost over. Thank Gods.

Off we go again

We got our next shot, were reminded of the side-effects and sent on our way. Wow... 5 pauses... and a specially treated vibroknuckler. They must really think something would go wrong.

Well, it did!

We were briefly attached at the first pause, but the pause was so short the ship only got scortched a bit. The second pause was long enough to be boarded by thieves. They attacked to distract us as other stole the food and meds and spare shift-suits. Many of us took small injuries... but the attack was not meant for killing... just stealing. They also took our flight driod. The other bodyguards worried about the small amount of food left. I worried about not having a flight droid. Would we be stuch here?

Apparently not. We jumped according to schedule... I just hope it was in the right direction.

Nothing happened at the third pause... though we were all asleep. I can't quite remember. Memory of some things is getting fuzzy. I tried to remember my scouting skills and techniques but drew a blank. DAMN. Same with the first aid. My unarmed I am trying to keep up in practice. I read through my datapad journal (which they specially treated for me too) to make sure i don't forget other more crucial things. One of the human bodyguards is now useless as he has forgotten even his own name and sits in a corner wimpering.

3 stops so far and it felt like a week, but my datapad should be keeping "real" time and it says 18 hours. Ug.

WIERD!!!

Well... it felt like an extremely long and uneventful 3 days to the second station. BUT... the time keepers on my datapad say then less than 24 hrs went by. WIERD!!! I had practiced my combat skills and counted things, and reread my journal over and over.... But I did not thing our 3 days was actually ONE! I thought it was a bad memory screw up side effect. The doctors and technicians informed us that time is a bit different in the shift tunnels. They gave us the next shot and let us know that this was the last leg of the journey that we will not be in stasis. It has 5 pauses. We were given specially treated weapons as all general effects tend to deteriorate and degenerate in this part of the journey. I aksed if the pendant I was wearing could be treated too. I got a HEAVY reprimand for even bringing it! TOUGH!!! After some grumbling... they agreed to treat the metal pendant... but could not treat the leather thong holding it about my neck. SO I tucked it safe, close to my heart.

First Stop!

We made it to the first major pause. It was a pocket in the dimensional jump path. It was a large enough pocket to plunk a space station. There was a doc you patched me up. I will have a scar. He gave us the next injection... and warned us of some of the side effects. Partial memory loss was a strong possibility. Well, good thing I write everything down, eh?! But he mentioned that the memory loss can also be bodily. That means, I will practice my unarmed combat either with the others on the ship or against my shadow. The dimentional shift also deteriorate things... like clothing. He advised us to get "shift suits" at the next stop.

First leg of the journey

Dimensional shift travel is... interesting... not. The trip was long and involved two pauses for jump changes. We were boarded on those two instances. The first was pirates. We all fought them off fairly well. The second was a planned assassination organized by a bodyguard here that was betrying the client he was to guard. HOW DISHONOURABLE! Poetic justice... he died in that struggle. Unfortunately, so did his client... and 5 other clients and 3 other bodyguards. I was wounded, took a stab in the gut. I applied some first aid... but the bleeding won't stop and the wound won't heal. This is one of the side effects to the med we took to survive the journal out of stasis. We are alomost at the first Stopping Station. I hope there is a med centre or at least a doc there.

Temple Contact

When I arrived at the transit station, I met... a familiar face! One of my old teachers from the temple! She was badly scarred... I had not thought she lived. When she saw me she too was surprised. She wasn't sure she recognized me till i filled in some blanks cautiously. Then! WOW... she was so happy she was crying!

She said she has something special for me. She was suppoed to go on this journey too, but couldnt, due to the damage she had incurred before. So she was going to put me in contact with a benefactor. Some folks named Fyrshka (another priestess) and a retiring smuggler named Ar'k. They will help make the transfer smooth. She then wished me luck, strength and courage and gave me the first med shot for the journey.

I hope we all survive!

At Last

At last I reach Eeseefa! He was a bit surprised. I did not explain why I was doing it. In case the imperials take him for questioning. I just said I have to go. I passed him all mine and Blimey's funds, the house, and our belongings. I left then with just enough for my ticket to the transfer location and the clothes on my back (including a bit of armor and a vibroknuckler and Blimey's necklace... swore i would NOT take it off for any reason but to return it to him). Eeseefa joked how WOW he finally broke a million credits! Hehe.

Good Bye Eeseefa, I know you will make it over to us soon.

Worried

When Blimey left, he told me he was giving the transit people my name as the emergency contact. I was a bit surprised... and shocked... and honoured. Why me? ANd well, never thought they would contact me. Nothing would go wrong.

Well, they contacted me.

They assured me he was safely in stasis... but he hasn't left. Hasn't left yet!!!???!!! Their original route was blocked by the Imperials. So they will take a longer route that has more stops. However, it is more dangerous and likely for bording by pirates and asassins. So, each "client" had their emergency contacts contacted to see if they had a bodyguard for the journey. What was I to say... he didn't tell me anything like that. And Eeseefa is not responding to comm or ANYTHING!

Fine! I will do it. I first asked them what it involved. They said that they would give some sort of special stim (doc jargon... sry don't remember what it really was) for the majority of the journey. They would then have the bodyguard off and put into stasis at the second to last stop. From there the original clients, they will be back onto the safe route having bypassed "trouble" and finish the 2-stop journey. The bodyguards will take a cheaper flight but also a quicker one and arrive before the clients arrive. OK!

But... there may be very bad side effects. These side effects are unknown... sort of. Anything from tissue degeneration, to memory loss, to ... who knows what.... to not making it alive at all. The first part of the journey also has its risks as we will be on an experimantal med to be active when everyone is in stasis.

I don't care the risks. I owe him my life. If ensuring his safety to the other galaxy (dimensional shift) takes my life... so be it. If it doesn't... well, he will think I stowed away or something. That would be a broken promise. But this is upholding honour.

I will go find one of my clergy's temples and meditate... and ask f0r their prayers and strength.

Well... that was exciting!

From the Jawa Trading Post, I had the joice of 2 cities to go to for healing. Mos Espa and Mystic Sands. Both were about 4000m from me. As I want to see the Tuskan Fort, I chose to go to Mystic Sans. The ride was long and painful with my wounds. But certainly bearable... I have been through much worse. And besides... I deserve these ones for my own stupidity.

Eeseefa's comm was on again... but he just wasn't answering. I hope he is safe. I hope he is not upset with me for anything. He was really Blimey's friend and only a business partner to me. I hope he doesn't hold me to blame for Blimey's leaving... although... he would have every right.

In Mystic Sands, the Med Centre was beautiful. It was run by Wookie Women. There was even a fantastic fish tank! Unfortunately... there was no medic there. I had to heal myself with their equipment. Ug. I am SO not the healer type.

OK! Once healed, off I went to the Tuskan Fort. I met some other people there. They informed me that the Tuskans were very tough and deadly. They told me to go away and get buffed and better armor. I had better armor, but would need to be buffed just to get it on. Well, I decided I wanted the damned badge no matter what. SOooo... I flew around thinking... what would be my plan? How would I get in and grab the badge from the hidden pool beneath and not get killed? Then I saw it!! A back door cave exit, in case they neded to flee. Hehehehe... I ran like a firecat through the cave tunnels. WOOHOO!! Tuskans EVERYWHERE! RUN RUN RUN! I ran past them. deep into the heart of the caves. Shots flying everywhere! Snatched the badge off the side of the pool. BLAM! Incapacitated... Got back up... and off I ran again! Out the top into the Fort! Past more Tuskans. Past the shocked folks trying to fight the Tuskans to get to the pool for their badges. WOOHOO! WHAT A RUSH!!! WOW!!!

Off to Mystic Sands to grab the shuttle to Kaitan City, which is close to the Krayt Graveyard POI. Standing at the shuttleposrt, this guy was ... just like my master! FREAK! OFF! FUCK!! I felt so dirty!! Another good reason NO ONE gets close to me!!

When I got to Kaitan, I took a small break to put my head back together after the freak. WHY why must some things STILL shake me!?! ~~sigh~~ Well, the cantina was real quiet. No Blimey, no Eeseefa.

Off to the last POI on Tattooine, well not the last, but the last I was intenting to do on Tattooine. Off to the Krayt Graveyard. Rumor has it that the Krayt dragons are still alive and frequent this area... and if one is lucky, they might find a Dragon Pearl. But... supposedly few had returned alive. Well... I had to see for myself. Sand... bones... ghost stories. BAH! There were no dragons. Got my POI badge for seeing... but that was it.

How'd I Get Here?

I am not sure what happened. I woke, feeling aweful and terribly wounded, in a merchant tent... an empty merchant tent. Jawa's? Oh, Jawas. There are jawas milling about outside. Somehow I ended up at the Jawa Trading Camp POI.

I summoned Blimey trusty medical droid and began doing some preliminary self-healing. But, the droid's battery died soon after. I tried to speak to the Jawas to buy another, but we didn't understand one another. Frustrated, I went to lie down again in the tent, before I fell down form the exertion.

I miss Blimey. I hope he is well. I pray he got to his new glalxy safely. I heard a rumor that id is actually a dimensional shift... but that seems silly and impossible... not to mention crazy and super dangerous. I haven't heard from Eeseefa either for some time. I fear he has been tracked down and is being interrogated. Maybe I am just having fever-dreams. I will go to the nearest city when my strength is up and make use of their med centre.

Not so good day...

The house feels all strange without Blimey here... spooky with his empty armor mounted on the wall. Neither Eeseefa nor I want to disturb it. Not till we KNOW he is safe. Consider me superstitious. I did however, pick up the blue padded armor he kept in storage. I wanted to have him close to me while I hunted. It helps me feel safe.

Eeseefa's comm was on today... but he was not responding. I hope he is ok.

I decided to go to Tattooine and get my shades from the bank as I will be trecking all over this hot and sunny planet exploring POI's.

First stop...Ancient Krayt Dragon Skeleton. Wow! Way out in the untouched desert sands.It crested the top of a dune like froth cresting a wave on the ocean. It really did look like an ocean the way the sand lay is watery wind-swept waves. The skeleton was HUGE. All theat could be seen above the sand was most of the skell and the ridges of the spine. WOW.

Next Stop... The remains of an Escape Pod. Why that is a POI I do not know. People on Tattooine must really be Outer Rim and ignorant. It was interesting to see how well preserved it was. This hot dry desert never seems to see any rain.

Next... Ben Kenobi's House. Now that is a legendary name. Obi-wan (Ben) Kenobi... Jedi. There are few Jedi here with the Empire and Sith in control. Rumor is that in other galaxies or universes, more Jedi can be found as the Empire's reach is less powerful. Anyways, the house was encircle by standing stones. I tried to go inside, but some unknown force kept me from entering.

Next... (yes I want to tackle all the POI) The day was great... I was on a roll! The Great Pit of Carkoon...Sarlacc. It was a deep hole in the sands with tentacles reaching up and searching for its next meal. I flew by and grabbed my explore badge. HAHA! The sarlacc errupted and spewed diseased and corrosive substances. Missed me! I flew by 2 more times! HAHA! Missed me again! OK... I stopped teasing the sarlacc. Blimey would have had a fit to see me dancing with death like this.

Instead, I flew off aiming for the Jawa Settlement. I set up camp along the way. CRAP! The sarlacc didn't miss me!! Ug. A delayed effect disease! I tried to sit and relax. I tried to heal myself with my limited knowledge. Dammit... I am really sick... and just getting worse. I didn't realize how used to him and his healing I have become... till now. Ug... Alone and really sick in camp... too far from a med centre. Oh gods... I miss him now. I wish he were here. To heal me... and to reprimand me for my stupidity.

Oh gods... I am not getting better...

All I can do is lay here, clutching Blimey's pendant and praying I do not join the krayt dragon as a skeleton in the sands.

Oh gods......

...... and I never got to tell him........

.......

Spiritual Day

I took a day to reconnect spiritually with the vows I took. I spent the day in meditation and praying for Blimey's safety. I have had no news from him yet. I expect it will be a few days... or weeks. I will try not to fret too much. He would want me to live actively and not pine. He made me promise to keep up with my training. I have goals. I have my freedom.

Yet, if there is a chance to escape this galaxy and meet up with him... I will take it... whatever the risk.

Gone

Blimey is gone now. My the Force be with him.

We talk earlier yesterday. He transfered more than 1 million creds to me. And began the transfer of his affairs, tying up loose ends. I will keep the house in his name to throw off the hunters.

Good thing too. Because later that day, when we were supposed to meet up, I went out to the camp to see if he was there. He wasn't. Instead there were 2 Sith Shadow Outlaws sifting through the remains of the camp. We surprised each other. I didn't even have my armor on! They attacked. I managed to kill one easily then grab the vibroknuckley off my belt to fight the other. He was really tough... and armored. I managed to shrug on my Ubese armor jacket between swings. But I took some damage. I almost died! Thank Gods Blimey had given me some stim-B's. A quick shot of that and I was good to keep fighting. I killed the other soon after. Sith hunters. Sith work for the Empire (or vice versa). They must have been after Blimey. But his comm was off. I was worried. I ran back to the house. He wasn't there either. He was late. He contacted me 10 min later from the campsite. I warned him. And he came to the house.

We were... quiet... for a bit. I noticed he wasn't wearing his mother's necklace. Just as i was going to ask him why... he passed it to me ... and asked me to wear it. I was ... am... still... overcome by the gesture. Honoured. I will NEVER take it off. He explained that the stasis flight is safe only on the cellular level. So, clothes and things... will only rot away over the long journey.

I can be strong. I will show him I am happy for his safe journey and that I have courage and faith. I will not let him know how much I am still terrified for him. Hugs. I ... it will take me a bit to get assustomed to that... at least from him. He even kissed me on the cheek. I froze. Millions of things running through my mind. I am not a frigid woman. Just... I am not ready for that... nor more... not yet. I want to me... but... I just can't convince myself to be.

This was Blimey's last night. So we went where ever he wanted. He asked me if there was anyplace beautiful that had lots of tough things to fight. I said Endor, remembering my first trip there early on in my freedom. We hunted. He explored the POI's. I taught him how to take snapshots with his datapad. I created a monster. He suddenly needed pictures of EVERYTHING! I took a few too.

Once I figure out how to put them up... I will get them onto the journal. I should have taken more throughout my travels. I have onlt one from the 3rd day of my freedom, sitting near a bocatt lair full of bocatts on Tattooine, before I changed my look. And now I have a few of me and Blimey at Ewok Villages. Blimey made me laugh today... lots... as he took pictures.

Gods. I will miss him!

Eeseefa will miss him too. I think Eeseefa is transfering to the same galaxy soon. But he got his DNA mixed up some how. He will be Trandoshen there. Ikes. That will take serious getting used to! I set Eeseefa to admin on the house on Corellia. So he can get things from Blimey's packs. And... have a safe place to crash.

Good Luck Blimey!

I do... really do have a good feeling about this. He will be safe.

REMEMBER YOUR PROMISE!

Exploring Corellia

After last night on Lok... I have been feeling very... anti-social. I just need time for me doing solitary in the woods exploring. I traveled to Kor Vella and met a Drall who gave me a waypoint for the Drall Patriots Cave Hideout. That was interesting. I traveled FAR to get to it. It was in the middle of a misty boggy area.

Then I traveled to a Point Of Interest (from now on called POI's) that I spotted on the map. It is the Agrilat Crystal Swamp. THAT was a neat place. VERY foggy and swampy with ntural tall stone fountains pouring out hot bubbling water. I noticed that some of the have geothermal energy collectors on them. Good idea. The crystals grow like plants here, so much so that I THOT they were plants till I got off my bike to take a closer look. I earned a badge of exploration for being here, too!

Blimey got me a gift and told me to go by the house to check it out.THAT was a LOOOONG ride from the Agrilat Swamp. I have to camp twice along the way. No fish this time. I have quite learned my lesson... and destroyed all the fish out of my packs. Allergies are NOT fun experiences. I camped and had hot tea and fruity/nutty flatbread. Mmmmm. The scenery was beutiful and soothing. This is exactly what I needed today.

On my way to the house I stopped in some of the merchant houses nearby. And bought some clothes and a painting and a torch for the house. (I got tired of standing in the dark.)

WOW! Blimey got be awesome Composite armor! And some Stim-B's! I can hunt and train alone! Yippee! I am still missing some pieces, but should meet up with Eeseefa later for them. This must have cost him lots! No wonder he is working like a dog in the starport buffing. I don't know what to say... or how I could possibly repay him.

I cleaned up my packs a bit. Moved some things from my personal carry pack to my house pack. I mounted the Painting... reminds me a bit of the temple I was in as a youth. I hope Blimey doesn't mind. I tried on the new clothes... the skirt matches my blue shirt nicely and the vest gives it a practical feeling. Without the vest... it looks a bit ... fancy. I... feel... kinda pretty. I tried the white bustier (yes, I was daring and bought one... just for the fun of it) and promptly decided to sell it. I... cannot "fill" it nicely. I am too... athletic. I am flat as a damned board! So, I will resell it. With the blue shirt and the vest... I an realizing just how much bare chest shows... I need a necklace or somethig to offset it... so people's eyes are drawn... you know... inappropriately to my very embarrassingly flat bosem. *embarrassed*

That is it. I decided to go see an image designer. Well, only a novice was there. So, I could not get my stats modified or anything else. But she did give me great make-up advice. Blimey said to be a woman... I am taking his advice. And it was... kinda fun... *shy*

I met up with Blimey and Eeseefa in the Coronet Starport. It was unusual for Blimey to do the buffing INSIDE the starport. Anyways, Eeseefa gave me really awesome (great protection stats) Ubese Armor... all white with some black. I tried it on. It looked great! Now I safely have 2 sets of armor for general hunting and fighting and for dealing with really nasty things, like Blimey fights. Thank you Eeseefa!!! AND CONGRATS!!! He made Master Armorsmith.

When I finally got to sit by Blimey, he commented that I looked quite pretty in my blue shirt and skirt and light vest. I blushed to the top of my horns uncontrollably! I also suddently felt naked. I don't quite know why he makes me feel like this... bold and proud and yet incredibly shy at the same time.

I sat by his side and watched him work... for an hour or more. It is very relaxing. I enjoy just sitting and watching him work. Is this how he feels when I catch him just... watching me?

I asked him why he healed and buffed even his enemies.
He said to me,
"Healing knows no boundaries."
Daily, he surprises me and I am honoured to be considered among his friends.

Lok

I had last remembered relaxing in camp after eating a fine meal of freshly caught fish on Yavin 4. But today, I woke in the Yavin 4 Mining outpost Med centre. Apparently, I was very lucky someone found me in my camp near the outpost. I had seized up as an allergic reaction to fish. I was still rather ill feeling and exhausted when I left. So, I am officially allergic to fish. I never had fish before my freedom... so never knew. I was planning on meeting Blimey and Eeseefa in Coronet to go hunting some more, when i blacked out again in the starport. UG! And missed the shuttle. Finally made it on the ship, puked on the ship. Apologized... I was SOOO embarrassed. I do not like that much direct attention.

Met with Blimey and Eeseefa in Coronet and got buffed by Blimey. Eeseefa gave me some armor, really good armor compared to what I had. And then he gave me money! I had money... I feel like I owe him. I owe both him and Blimey so much... my very life in a way. Eeseefa and I traveled to Theed without Blimey, as he was still working buffing people at the Coronet starport. Then we traveled to Lok.

LOK.

OH GODS!

I remember this place... I could not stop the shaking... I was sure I had a grip on things. Eeseefa did not really understand. Why should he? I wanted to get off the planet immediately, but Blimey was on his way. I did my best to show courage, or at least silent resolve. We hunted. I harvested more than 2k leathery hides for Eeseefa for armor. He said he would have great armor for me in a couple days. I tried to give Blimey the 1k excellent herbivore meat, but he refused it. This is what he first hired me for. He said he had quite enough for a long while. He told me to sell it. Supposedly it will sell at 125cpu. WOW! What would I do with that kind on creds? Blimey suggested I go buy some nice clothes... but all I ever do is hunt and fight. What would nice clothes be good for? He said it was ok for me to be a woman sometimes. What is THAT supposed to mean?

I was too tired to think any further on it. I just wanted off the damned traumatic planet. I reached Coronet still shaking and my heart pounding in my ears. Strange how an experience can effect your view of a whole planet. I thought i had it well buried or dealt with. I guess not. I had to eventually just sit on a bench and shut the world out.

Grinding Skills

Met up with Blimey again today on Yavin 4. We went to hunt everything in our path to grind our Teras Kasi skills and earn lots of experience. I harvested only when we stopped for a breather. Blimey is extremely focused on this task. I am a bit worried about it. But then again, maybe I shouldn't be. He tackled his learning to be Master Doctor the same way. Unshaking, purely devoted anf focused attention to the task or goal at hand. And only an EMERGENCY would pull his attention away from this. I guess I am very grateful that I even get included in any of this. Sometimes I think he has few friends here, even among his guild.

En route to another group of critters, he tried to lighten the mood with some sillines. I tried to return with a joke. I am not sure if I was successful. He seemed surprised and laughed. I am not always serious... and I do smile sometimes, when there is something funny or when I am happy. Ok... these are not frequent feelings. But they are not rare as to be surprised by it. Are they?

I think he gained more experience on this day than I did as he hits 3 times to every one of my hits. He also has armor to protect him and thus is not taken out as often as I am. Yes, I am STILL fighting without any body armor. Eeseefa has asked me to hunt wooly hides from Yavin for him. I will strive to get 1000 for him and he will make me some padded armor. When he learned that I had no body armor, he said he would make me an Ubese jacket to tide me over till the padded is ready.

Blimey decided to check out a Point Of Interest on the Yavin 4 planetary map. He hoped it was a cave full of critters. We were going to the Temple of Exar Kun. He was very upset with his discovery. It was a huge, abandoned looking temple. But inside... there was a hidden Rebel Alliance base. He hid up on a hill out of sight. I am not Imperial. So... I went inside to look around! I was awarded with a badge of discovry but was then kicked out as the area was considered restricted. Someone explained to me that I needed permission from someone named Mon Mothma in order to enter any further. I wonder who that person is....

I now have 5 discovery badges:
Corellia
- Vreni Island's Theatre
- Bela Vistal's Crystal Fountain

Rori
- Rebel Outpost
- Imperial Encampment

Yavin 4
- Exar Kun's Temple