Last Look at Free Spirit

I was meditating in the temple after checking the recordfs and getting myself updated. Gods... so much has changed. Yesterday a man came in. He was here only once before to visit, and meditate. I know not his name. But he gave me a lightsaber. He told me I was ready. It was time.

Time? For what?

Time to let go. Let go of everything you once knew. Let go. Jedi are not attached to possessions, locations... or even memories. Fyrshka had secrets. Kimbrya held more than her body could contain. You, now, must let go. Let them go. The pains, the searching, the loss, the fighting and striving. Let it all go. It is time to move on.

Time to... but the temple? Max?! Tai'shan!! *~tai'shan~*

Such bond are never lost. Trust in the Force to guide you. The Jedi are needed. But... now is not the time for that, now is the time to learn, complete your training.

I knew it was time. I felt it. I was as certain about it as I was certain I was pregnant when I was. I gathered just one change of clothes and a few small items from the temple. The cats, I sent a message to Ebe to find them good homes. Thank you Ebe for all you have done. I will find Max. This is my last entry.

I looked back at the temple one last time. Koownye padded along beside me and Laghairt. Then I looked on the temple no more.... never again in my lifetime. I felt Kimbrya smile. I felt... others... I felt...

Fire & Snow

Captured and Released?

I was out hunting... I think. It was so long ago. I was doing what I could to keep the temple going. There was still no news from Max. I must go on... I must be strong... for him. My training was going so well. The protector Max had hired for me was killed in a small civil war. But little happened to change around my temple. I hunted, I sold what I hunted, I hunted for contracts.

And then...

It gets all fuzzy from here.

I was arrested. Questioned. Imprisoned... I thought at first it was the Imperials. It definately could not be the Alliance. I endured... many days... days turned to months... The routine was the same. So were the questions. I would not give in.

"What is your name?"
Scar'let F... Firecat... (after a long time... I wanted to say Fyrshka....why?)
"Where do you come from?"
Iridonia... so of course there are no records. *SLAP* (ow... I was actually born in another galaxy... and they were grinding me down to hear that... another dimension... maybe another time)
"How did you get here?"
By starship... (of course)
"What is Free Spirit?"
A peaceful non-dinominational spiritual retreat centre, a temple.
"What is your relation to Maxell Snow?"
..... *silence*..... *SLAP* ..... (ow... that is personal asshole)
"Where is Maxell Snow?"
I don't know... *SLAP* I DON'T KNOW!!!! (well I don't... do i?)
"What have you done to him?"
Nothing.... what have YOU done to him... *ZOT* (ugh... f-ing stun baton)
"What have you done to Deomo?"
nothing.... (everything and nothing *anguish*)
"How many children do you have?"
None. (That hurt... oh gods that hurt to say. But better for Meela that I say it. Better for Deomo. The twins are dead and Meela is no longer mine, no... I have no children.)

The went on and on and on. I knew not way or their purpose. Sometimes the questions were stupid. Or the order made no sense. Whay was I there? What were they looking for? Some people would then start spilling their souls out for it to stop. Me... I got quiet. Shut myself up deep inside. Tried my best to hide even from Max. I did not want him worrying. I would find a way out.

Then suddenly it was over. They just... let me go. Just like that. Out into the busy streets of some city... which city? *blink blink* Theed. Naboo. All my clothes and effects were in order. My bank account was like dust. Someone took pity on me and handed me a piece of fruit. Do I look so pitiful? I sold some armor from my storage in my account box and ate decently for a week or so. Stayed at the hotel in Theed... the cheap one. Hid in the Library some... till I recouped. There was a nice doc who came in and aided me. An Alliance doc. I was not told his name.

When I was well, I checked my datapad. GODS! SIX MONTHS!!! Six months have gone by!!!
THE TEMPLE!!! Oh no.... I was sure it was rubble by now. Flew there as fast as I could. So much has changed. I will so need to get updated. Still no news from Max. Ebe! I had news from Ebe. She has been keeping up the Temple. Bless her! Thank you Ebe... thank you so very much.

I am still confused. This will take time to sort out.

Max... Tai'shan....

Fyrshka....

Gods...