Nightmare Realized

We talked a bit after about what will become of the future and the risk Deomo would have being too closely related to me. Then the topic came to what would happen if he loyalty became suspect. And across that bond I got the clear knowledge of what they would do to Deomo if they only knew. The Empire would take him in and aim to break him... no matter how long it took... no matter the means. And then, broken likely put in a similar implant to what they gave Brem. I shuddered. The horror of the images so real... so like...

OH GODS!!!

Maxell!!!

Deomo arrests Maxell on Monday. OH GODS!!! It hit me. That is what will happen to Maxell. OH GODS!!! And he is willingly turning himself in! Doesn't he REALIZE!!!??? Does he know?!?! The panic gripped me so badly. Deomo... can't allow this. I can't allow this. Max... has to get away... OH GODS.... My mind spiraled. My world narrowed. It was like my ordeal all over again just... different. I could hardly breathe. I ... wanted to die. Deomo... was freaking out too. I had... nearly shut him out... on a newly forged bond. He couldn't understand why I could not fathom living without Maxell. I had to find a way to deal... to focus... to work out a way to stop this. I could not let it happen. I would stand in the way. I will have to die before they take Maxell! I... sht down. I built walls. Deomo came to me... trying to reach me. I was... cold... He didn't know what to do. All he said was: "What about your promise to me? Do I mean nothing?" And jumped my ship with an escape pod. I don't know how long I lay crumpled on the floor with incoherent tears. My life... their lives are falling apart... falling apart because of these damned bonds. I ... care for them both... I just... Now I am losing them both.

My ship drifted.

The planet came into view and the sunlight streaked the carpet floor. Deomo? Max? They were... gone? I could not reach them. I could sense them... but ... I stood and tried to fly the ship back to the spaceport. Vision and mind a blur.

RUSHING
SHAKING
STARS FLEW BY
THE PLANET LOOMED
THE HEAT ROSE FAST
THE SHIP LURCHED
ENGULFED IN RED AND YELLOW AND WHILE HOT LIGHT
I FOUGHT THE CONTROLS
THEY WOULD NOT LISTEN
I COULD NOT HOLD THEM
THE SHIP TWISTED IN THE BURNING ATMOSPHERE
BROKE THE BARRIER AND LEVELED
FLAT SPIN TOWARD THE FOREST FLOOR
I KICKED THE THRUSTERS
IMPACT
RUSH OF GREEN AND BROWN
*CRASH*

I am alive...
Wounded... but...
UNDER ATTACK!!!
I have no idea what jumped me in the dark with claws and teeth. My pain suddenly reverberated along the bonds. But max was too far away to help. Deomo came... too late. I woke in the cloner with Deomo standing over me. His words were cold and full of the pain of a heart wounded man. "Get up! You are Zabrak and are not that badly hurt."
He then left me standing there in the starport of Yavin. I could feel him in turmoil but... could not get him close again. I hurt him... as I had Max before Deomo's ordeal. I seem to always be hurting... others... dammit. Why can't I do one gods be damned thing right these days!!!