January 1st, xxx5: Leap of Faith
In Deomo's ordeal, Maxell's words rung strong in my mind:
My love, I am here. I will always be here. I am your strength. Rech for him. Reach along that tai'shan bond... and call him back. Call him back. *I know what that may mean* Do it.
Could I? How?
And me in such a foul mood now too. And tired from all that has gone on this week.
But... somehow I must. I must reach and forge a bond. Give Deomo something to hold onto. I promised I would never give up on him. I have to try. I have to risk.
We will hunt.
I have a plan... sotra.
He met up with me. The red pendant still glowing on him... still eminating a strange dark sense, not exactly evil, but defiantely dark and unnatural. He was not as feral as last night. It must have either exhausted itself or sated itself. Either way, it was at bay. I could feel it sitting on the dge waiting. Just as I could feel the energy of theis pendant doing the same. Well... they cannot have him! He must be himself. And be able to use these aspects of himself and not be lost to them. He looked upon me, almost with the gentle eyes of before... but they still flickered red and not the pale azure I was used to.
We hunted. My mind still swimming in the thought of yesterday, trying to formulate a plan. I summoned the feral to lend my body strength and accuracy, but it did not control my mind. I hunted and let my mind be at ease with the familiarity of the actions. My mind wandered.I do not know what to think. I am caught between two different worlds. And as he hunted, I plan began to formulate more clearly. Then, his buffs ran out. And there... there my plan sparked!
I still had two hours on my enhancemnts. *risk*
I need to get away from here... somewhwere isloated. My ship... my sorosuub. I was not sure what I would do yet. Take the pendant from him? Reach along the bond to him and the pendant for the rest of what could be seen and maybe cleanse the pendant of its curse? Reach along the bond and convince him to give up the pendant? Forge a stronger bond that he could hold onto... through union? That was something that has crossed my mind everytime I am near him and things are peaceful and he is gentle. Just as it floods my mind when I am near Maxell. But can I trust that much? Can I reach that far? Dare I? Can I trust myself? Can I trust Maxell to understand? Can I trust Deomo... *trust*
*risk*
I must do what I must. I will let the Force guild me. Take a leap of faith... trust myself. I will know what to do... it will come to me and I will do it.... There is no hesitation... there is no try.
My love, I am here. I will always be here. I am your strength. Rech for him. Reach along that tai'shan bond... and call him back. Call him back. *I know what that may mean* Do it.
Could I? How?
And me in such a foul mood now too. And tired from all that has gone on this week.
But... somehow I must. I must reach and forge a bond. Give Deomo something to hold onto. I promised I would never give up on him. I have to try. I have to risk.
We will hunt.
I have a plan... sotra.
He met up with me. The red pendant still glowing on him... still eminating a strange dark sense, not exactly evil, but defiantely dark and unnatural. He was not as feral as last night. It must have either exhausted itself or sated itself. Either way, it was at bay. I could feel it sitting on the dge waiting. Just as I could feel the energy of theis pendant doing the same. Well... they cannot have him! He must be himself. And be able to use these aspects of himself and not be lost to them. He looked upon me, almost with the gentle eyes of before... but they still flickered red and not the pale azure I was used to.
We hunted. My mind still swimming in the thought of yesterday, trying to formulate a plan. I summoned the feral to lend my body strength and accuracy, but it did not control my mind. I hunted and let my mind be at ease with the familiarity of the actions. My mind wandered.I do not know what to think. I am caught between two different worlds. And as he hunted, I plan began to formulate more clearly. Then, his buffs ran out. And there... there my plan sparked!
I still had two hours on my enhancemnts. *risk*
I need to get away from here... somewhwere isloated. My ship... my sorosuub. I was not sure what I would do yet. Take the pendant from him? Reach along the bond to him and the pendant for the rest of what could be seen and maybe cleanse the pendant of its curse? Reach along the bond and convince him to give up the pendant? Forge a stronger bond that he could hold onto... through union? That was something that has crossed my mind everytime I am near him and things are peaceful and he is gentle. Just as it floods my mind when I am near Maxell. But can I trust that much? Can I reach that far? Dare I? Can I trust myself? Can I trust Maxell to understand? Can I trust Deomo... *trust*
*risk*
I must do what I must. I will let the Force guild me. Take a leap of faith... trust myself. I will know what to do... it will come to me and I will do it.... There is no hesitation... there is no try.
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