Maxell's Last Day... Sunday January 2, xxx5
Maxell and I finally have our first... our FIRST day to ourselves. I wish it wasn't the last. I am trying to not think too hard about it. I wan to enjoy it as much as possible. I also dread the talk... the one I KNOW must happen about Deomo and I over the weekend. I do not regret my choice. But I do regret the pain that I once again cause.
I met him in the Theed cantina and bowed a hello to his friend Anif, the entertainer from COE. They have done the best performances in the galaxy!
Max wanted to desperately show me something. He guarded his pain, the pain I know he felt ocer Deomo and I, guarded it well. He didn't want to make this last day miserable either.
Max brought me to his house in Hendola. And lead me into the main room... his spirit humming with joy. WOW! It was beautiful! Not at all what I had remembered. There was a large pool with a rug and meditation space. His own. With his own touch and feel to it. *smile* I could not help but feel joy that flowed to me from him. he dashed downstairs and returned with a swimsuit for me. *!!!* He changed quickly and climbed into the pool. I stood a bit dumbstruck. What?! Me?! In water?! He coaxed and urged. I peered over the edge. It wasn't deep. I hade waded before. I used to swim as a child... but that was so very very long ago. Now... I was... deeply afraid of drowning. Wading. I can do that. And I would do anything he wanted this night anyways. Just to see him smile and his deep blue eyes sparkle. I nervously changed into the unfamiliar swimsuit. And cautiously climbed in. One foot at a time... slowly stepping into the water. AK... wet! *whine* It was not cold. But it was a bit deeper than anticipated... up to my waist. It took several minutes to calm my nerves and get accustomed to the feel. it was actually... soothing. The ripples relaxing to watch. I moved my hand in the water... fascinated. He watched me in wonderment at my wonderment. He didn't rush me. He let me take my own time to get used to it. I watched Max move with such grace through the water. He is so comfortable in it. I even got a bit bold and wandered about the pool. *baby steps to comfort* His giddy happiness at getting me into the water made me laugh... pulled me to playfulness. I gave him a small splash. *grin* And he splashed me back. *giggle* I... we... had fun! But got out before we "wrinkled".
We dried off and sat on the plush blue carpet. Just sat there in silence for a long time. It was... wonderful. I didn't want to break this peace. I wanted to hold onto it forever. But it could not last. We needed to talk... about what happened with Deomo and I. *Please forgive me Maxell... please understand...* To my surprise... he told me he and Deomo met earlier... and spoke already. *gasp* And they did not kill each other. This was more awkward than me having to tell Maxell what I did with Deomo. But then... of course he would know... he would sense it along the bond. Gods. I care for them both... so deeply. This inner conflict was hard to handle. I could feel that Max was deeply pained by my actions and choice... but somehow... accepted them. *!!!*
*acceptance*
What choice do we have anyways?
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Then Aico tagged our comms. *GRRRRrrrRRRrrr* He tried to torment us. *trust* I trust in my tai'shan bond... both of them. Aico has no power to scare me. I dropped my camm in the pool. *GRIN* Max soon did the same... with the same grin. *GRIN* Aico will not disrupt our time this night.
Maxell then told me about the arrest. That he was going to turn himself in. Oh gods! Stress and anxity rose in me. He explained that part of the reason they wanted him was to be a new host for the clone army... as his blood show these anomolies that enhance the average human. *OH GODS* But his empathy is burned out... and if they challenge him to use it... he can't. He was also wanted for crimes against the Empire. What crimes?!? He is loyal! Hell... almost loyal enough to encourage me to become an Imperial! A criminal... gods... They will torture him for sure...
ANd then he had the gaul to tell me this was to be my physical/mental challenge. To get him out after. WHAT!!!???!!! This isn't a controlled environment... not even a SEMI-controlled environment!!! I had this intense impending doom... this sense that there was something unexpected... and so very not right.
*mind spinning*
*head and heart pounding*
He called to me along the bond. *TRUST* And made me VOW to not interfere. WHY!?! NO!!!!!!! But I did. I ... had to... Deomo was right. If Max did not go with the arrest, then the EMpire would hunt everything dear to him. Me. The temple. Ebe. And their son. If Deomo did not arrest him, then Deomo would be likewise suspected. I... I was caught in the middle. Caught in the crossfire. Gods...
-----
Maxell held me tight, close, strength and encouragement flowing to me. Peace... calm... We will take this noght... take it and make it ours. Unite in body mind and spirit. And so we joined. Reached along the bond. I willingly... as I did with Deomo, willingly gave in and opened up to Maxell. He gave me the space to explore on my own... like in the water of the pool. And get comfortable with the full awarenes of our bodies. I could feel the rise in pleasure within him as though it were my own. It was. We were as one. And the world froze in time to give us however long we wanted for this union. Union I wholely wanted. The choice I had made in my heart. ANd so we slept as one. For perhaps the last day Maxe lives.
I met him in the Theed cantina and bowed a hello to his friend Anif, the entertainer from COE. They have done the best performances in the galaxy!
Max wanted to desperately show me something. He guarded his pain, the pain I know he felt ocer Deomo and I, guarded it well. He didn't want to make this last day miserable either.
Max brought me to his house in Hendola. And lead me into the main room... his spirit humming with joy. WOW! It was beautiful! Not at all what I had remembered. There was a large pool with a rug and meditation space. His own. With his own touch and feel to it. *smile* I could not help but feel joy that flowed to me from him. he dashed downstairs and returned with a swimsuit for me. *!!!* He changed quickly and climbed into the pool. I stood a bit dumbstruck. What?! Me?! In water?! He coaxed and urged. I peered over the edge. It wasn't deep. I hade waded before. I used to swim as a child... but that was so very very long ago. Now... I was... deeply afraid of drowning. Wading. I can do that. And I would do anything he wanted this night anyways. Just to see him smile and his deep blue eyes sparkle. I nervously changed into the unfamiliar swimsuit. And cautiously climbed in. One foot at a time... slowly stepping into the water. AK... wet! *whine* It was not cold. But it was a bit deeper than anticipated... up to my waist. It took several minutes to calm my nerves and get accustomed to the feel. it was actually... soothing. The ripples relaxing to watch. I moved my hand in the water... fascinated. He watched me in wonderment at my wonderment. He didn't rush me. He let me take my own time to get used to it. I watched Max move with such grace through the water. He is so comfortable in it. I even got a bit bold and wandered about the pool. *baby steps to comfort* His giddy happiness at getting me into the water made me laugh... pulled me to playfulness. I gave him a small splash. *grin* And he splashed me back. *giggle* I... we... had fun! But got out before we "wrinkled".
We dried off and sat on the plush blue carpet. Just sat there in silence for a long time. It was... wonderful. I didn't want to break this peace. I wanted to hold onto it forever. But it could not last. We needed to talk... about what happened with Deomo and I. *Please forgive me Maxell... please understand...* To my surprise... he told me he and Deomo met earlier... and spoke already. *gasp* And they did not kill each other. This was more awkward than me having to tell Maxell what I did with Deomo. But then... of course he would know... he would sense it along the bond. Gods. I care for them both... so deeply. This inner conflict was hard to handle. I could feel that Max was deeply pained by my actions and choice... but somehow... accepted them. *!!!*
*acceptance*
What choice do we have anyways?
-----
Then Aico tagged our comms. *GRRRRrrrRRRrrr* He tried to torment us. *trust* I trust in my tai'shan bond... both of them. Aico has no power to scare me. I dropped my camm in the pool. *GRIN* Max soon did the same... with the same grin. *GRIN* Aico will not disrupt our time this night.
Maxell then told me about the arrest. That he was going to turn himself in. Oh gods! Stress and anxity rose in me. He explained that part of the reason they wanted him was to be a new host for the clone army... as his blood show these anomolies that enhance the average human. *OH GODS* But his empathy is burned out... and if they challenge him to use it... he can't. He was also wanted for crimes against the Empire. What crimes?!? He is loyal! Hell... almost loyal enough to encourage me to become an Imperial! A criminal... gods... They will torture him for sure...
ANd then he had the gaul to tell me this was to be my physical/mental challenge. To get him out after. WHAT!!!???!!! This isn't a controlled environment... not even a SEMI-controlled environment!!! I had this intense impending doom... this sense that there was something unexpected... and so very not right.
*mind spinning*
*head and heart pounding*
He called to me along the bond. *TRUST* And made me VOW to not interfere. WHY!?! NO!!!!!!! But I did. I ... had to... Deomo was right. If Max did not go with the arrest, then the EMpire would hunt everything dear to him. Me. The temple. Ebe. And their son. If Deomo did not arrest him, then Deomo would be likewise suspected. I... I was caught in the middle. Caught in the crossfire. Gods...
-----
Maxell held me tight, close, strength and encouragement flowing to me. Peace... calm... We will take this noght... take it and make it ours. Unite in body mind and spirit. And so we joined. Reached along the bond. I willingly... as I did with Deomo, willingly gave in and opened up to Maxell. He gave me the space to explore on my own... like in the water of the pool. And get comfortable with the full awarenes of our bodies. I could feel the rise in pleasure within him as though it were my own. It was. We were as one. And the world froze in time to give us however long we wanted for this union. Union I wholely wanted. The choice I had made in my heart. ANd so we slept as one. For perhaps the last day Maxe lives.
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