Walks Through Walls !!!

Brought Kimbrya to the Temple with a medic to shadow her, then off to distance myself from people. I got a buffing in Coronet and hunted on Yavin for a bit. I had mentioned the shrine on Endor to Kimbrya and she sent my datapad a waypoint for one on Yavin. So I hunted along the way to that shrine.

There I sat allowing the Force to guide my inner self. I held Brem's stpne in my hands and felt... peace. Everything was normal again, as normal as I could expect. The in rolled confusions and pain... he walked right through all my carefully placed walls! Like they didn't exist! At one hand I... fiercely want to be close to him. On the other... I hardly know him and wanted to run as far from him as I could. But here he was, wounded, disoriented... needing my help. I could not withstand that sense of NEED so deep it shook me to the core. I went to him and guided him to the shrine. We talked. We camped. I mentioned Deomo. He became enraged. The feral! I was LOST AGAIN!!! But... he brought me back. We feed off each other.... yet he has more control than I. It is harder and harder to resist the feral.

It is harder and harder to resist getting close to Him... but when I did. When I did... it was ... right somehow. His patience and his comfort. Trust. Tenuous trust. He held me. The scent of him filled me. It brought me peace. I slept like a kitten in his lap at the foot of this shrine. Trust.