Losing Meela is now Reality

I woke mildly cramped... and lightly bleeding. This is SOOOO not good. I shouldn't bleed while pregnant. Should not. It wasn't much... but enough to scare me. I reached to sense Meela. She seemed fine. I need to see a doc.

I walked into the temple office to look through the database and see if max left any doc contacts. There was none. As I was there I received a comm from (Rebel) Alliance command. I was called in for a mission. MISSION!!!??? Are you karking nuts!!!??? *sigh* I have to sort this out.

I left immediately for the Rebel base near Wanders End. I could see a doc there while I am at it. I will also REFUSE my mission. But I have good reason dammit. They just need to be properly informed. I pulled on the new red and charcoal padded armor that Deomo got me. Wow... it looks so good... and is REAL comfortable. Much better that the composite armor!! I masked my scent... don't nee the karking dogs chasing me. Took up my sword.. Called up my swoop. Then i sped across the plains of Dantooine to Wanders End.

As I passed over a lake I spotted a factory... Onion Enterprise... BLIMEY! *i miss him* But I kept going. The base was just over the... gone? **!!!???* What? Where... where did it go? KARK. I don't know where there is another base. Dammit. Where is an egent? I contacted command and asked for an agent location. Moenia, Naboo. *sigh* I headed back to Wanders End. I stopped by Blimey's to see if he was at his workshop. Most of the shiprwrite stuff was gone, as was the vendor. He just had his doctors supplies there. As I coasted into Wanders End... there were... changes. It looked ... different. There was even a shuttle port. Well... handy. I grabbed a shuttle to Agro Starport. My luck! No pirates! Boarded my ship to Moenia without incident.

*cramp* I had to sit and rest a moment. *reached and cradled Meela*

When I was ok... I headed out. As I stepped out of the starport, I was mugged... sorta... by a Skaak Tipper gang member. He tasted my blade. Oh... well... i bypassed his mouth and sent it right through his stomach... so maybe he didn't actually "taste" my blade. I had to fight several others on my way to the agent. Damn! The vermin are out of full grouping today!

Inside the building, I sat to rest again and sift through my packs fro a datadisk i managed to decode the other day. My hands shook. I took a few slow deep breaths. I know I am worrying and stressing. *Meela* I hope the agent can direct me to a trusted doc. I then went over to the agent. The datadisk proved to be valuable. Good. I am glad they could use it.

My orders were to head undercover into a very busy location and listen for information. But it was a heavily Imperial monitored location. There are things moving and changing in the GCW (Galactic Civil War). I refused the mission. And explained why to the shocked officer. He was then even more shocked... and concerned. He directed me to a doctor in the med centre. Tjis was a quality Rebel doc... one of the ones who had helped Kimbrya. Good. I headed there right away.

*anxiety*

I had a full examination. I ... did not like it. I was VERY uncomfortable. But I NEEDED to see with my own eyes. *devastated* I saw the resulting tests... and the ultrasounds... and the news was.... was.... what I expected... and worse. They confirmed everything Deomo mentioned as possible, only as a definite. They confirmed everything Max said... and gave me a time limit. The doctor files papers for me and sent them off to declare me on official leave of absence. They asked me to sit and rest. I must have looked very shocky. I was kinda shocked. It is one thing to consider this a possibility. It is a whole other thing to know it is inevitable! I was given some meds to reduce the contractions and hopefully delay things as long as possible.

I should have miscarried Meela a long time ago. But the healing i got from Kayon delayed thay. I am not likely to carry her past the end of the week. *shock* They asked me to consider abortion *NO!* as I will likely hemorrage and die if I miscarry her at this point. *anxiety* I need to talk to Deomo... and Max. I will not lose her. Deomo will never agree to an abortion. Nor will I. Will Max be able to get that facility up in time? *worry* Do I have enough time? Does Meela?

I need to see that specialist. Gods... when is Max getting back?