Karking Pendant!
Deomo....
His city was attacked. He recruits decimated. Despite everything eh tried. They all died. The ensuing depresion that set in from the loss was incredible. It rolled like a dark mass along the bond. He failed. He failed his city. He failed his command. He failed the troops under him. he failed himself. Gods. This was a downward spiral I could hardly reach. And the pendant just pulsed with it. It beat in time with his heart. Or his heart beat in time with it. I could not tell. I tried to condole him. It was overwhelming odds. it could not be helped. He did everything he could.
I could sense him cringing in a dark corner of his house... scared. Deomo? Scared? Max told me to try to reach him with the bond. I could not go to the city in person. I knelt and went into a meditaion trance and reached. Reach via our bond. I was met with a maelsorm of emotions, dark self-destructive emotions. And Deomo was actually scared. He had never failed at anything before. I wanted to wrap my arms around him and comfort him. Max lent me his strength. I reach again... I tried to wrap my spirit around his and comfort it....
But I was blocked! AK! BLOCKED!!!??? The pendant blocked me! KARK! I reached harder, with Max's help. It blocked me again. I slammed into a wall. I could still feel Deomo... I could speak with him... but I could not reach to offer him anything along our bond. Karking Pandant! Blocked. Oh yeah..... *warning tone* Fine. I opened a channel to the Force. I called upon the feral and the Force. I know I am not as focused with it consciously... but I had to try. ANd as I felt it fill me... i reached AGAIN!
~~WHAM!!~~
I toppled over gasping. It hit me. It reaced back along the bond and blasted me! *shock* *pain* I lost my focus and connection to the Force. I was knocked flat. *dizzy* The Ancestors in the pendant. Why? They said he was more theirs than mine.
Max began to question me about what happened. And I lost focus.. the room semed to vanish in light. The otherness came to speak through me to Maxell. And then I blacked out. Fainted. *dammit... again*
I came to in Max's arms in our bedromm downstairs. Exhausted. I could not reach Deomo again. I just couldn't. I had no more strength. Karking pendant. I couls sense Deomo panicking. He was hearing the voices in the pendant. He was losing his mind over it. Some small part of me was amused. He has never heard voices in his head before. I have lived with the whisperings of ghosts and the Force constantly in my mind. And this... this I think scared him more than feeling like a failure. He really needs a vacation. I hope he will take one soon. I think I will take him up on his offer and see if I can help him sort out that pendant. If I can get Max and his spice problem sorted out ... ugh.
*focus*
Ok... first. Temple Blessing. So the space is clear and the Force floing smoothly in it. Then I can work and practice in here and be better able to help my two tai'shans. The moon hits new crescent in the wee hours of Thursday morning. Hmmm... maybe the Dark Moon energy is effecting people? Is the moon is the same phase there on Talus? Hmmm... *exhausted* Karking pendant. I will have to think more on everything tomorrow. *drifting*
Max held me close. I could feel his worry for me.
His city was attacked. He recruits decimated. Despite everything eh tried. They all died. The ensuing depresion that set in from the loss was incredible. It rolled like a dark mass along the bond. He failed. He failed his city. He failed his command. He failed the troops under him. he failed himself. Gods. This was a downward spiral I could hardly reach. And the pendant just pulsed with it. It beat in time with his heart. Or his heart beat in time with it. I could not tell. I tried to condole him. It was overwhelming odds. it could not be helped. He did everything he could.
I could sense him cringing in a dark corner of his house... scared. Deomo? Scared? Max told me to try to reach him with the bond. I could not go to the city in person. I knelt and went into a meditaion trance and reached. Reach via our bond. I was met with a maelsorm of emotions, dark self-destructive emotions. And Deomo was actually scared. He had never failed at anything before. I wanted to wrap my arms around him and comfort him. Max lent me his strength. I reach again... I tried to wrap my spirit around his and comfort it....
But I was blocked! AK! BLOCKED!!!??? The pendant blocked me! KARK! I reached harder, with Max's help. It blocked me again. I slammed into a wall. I could still feel Deomo... I could speak with him... but I could not reach to offer him anything along our bond. Karking Pandant! Blocked. Oh yeah..... *warning tone* Fine. I opened a channel to the Force. I called upon the feral and the Force. I know I am not as focused with it consciously... but I had to try. ANd as I felt it fill me... i reached AGAIN!
~~WHAM!!~~
I toppled over gasping. It hit me. It reaced back along the bond and blasted me! *shock* *pain* I lost my focus and connection to the Force. I was knocked flat. *dizzy* The Ancestors in the pendant. Why? They said he was more theirs than mine.
Max began to question me about what happened. And I lost focus.. the room semed to vanish in light. The otherness came to speak through me to Maxell. And then I blacked out. Fainted. *dammit... again*
I came to in Max's arms in our bedromm downstairs. Exhausted. I could not reach Deomo again. I just couldn't. I had no more strength. Karking pendant. I couls sense Deomo panicking. He was hearing the voices in the pendant. He was losing his mind over it. Some small part of me was amused. He has never heard voices in his head before. I have lived with the whisperings of ghosts and the Force constantly in my mind. And this... this I think scared him more than feeling like a failure. He really needs a vacation. I hope he will take one soon. I think I will take him up on his offer and see if I can help him sort out that pendant. If I can get Max and his spice problem sorted out ... ugh.
*focus*
Ok... first. Temple Blessing. So the space is clear and the Force floing smoothly in it. Then I can work and practice in here and be better able to help my two tai'shans. The moon hits new crescent in the wee hours of Thursday morning. Hmmm... maybe the Dark Moon energy is effecting people? Is the moon is the same phase there on Talus? Hmmm... *exhausted* Karking pendant. I will have to think more on everything tomorrow. *drifting*
Max held me close. I could feel his worry for me.
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